WOUNDED EGO SIDE STORY: An Alpha's Dilemma

AKI

HINDI ko alam kung gaano katagal akong umiyak sa mga bisig ni Chihiro. Pagdilat ko ng aking mga mata ay umaga na.

[I ended up crying myself to sleep last night, huh?]

Chihiro didn't wake me up so I had to get out of his room and find him. I heard faint noises from a distance as I walked farther from the room. "Chihiro...?" I softly called out his name while rubbing my right eye a little bit. My eyes were all fuzzy probably because I cried for too long.

Napaigtad naman si Chihiro sa pagsulpot ko at muntik pa nitong mabitawan ang hawak-hawak niyang sandok. Balisa siyang lumingon sa gawi ko habang namumula ang mukha. "Sensei? Gising ka na pala? Bakit hindi mo 'ko tinawag kaagad?" Sa halip na sagutin siya ay natuon ang pansin ko sa kanyang ginagawa.

[Is he cooking? For real?] I thought to myself at doon ko lang nasimulang maamoy ang mabangong aroma ng bagong pinakuluang kape at kakaluto lang na longganisa at fried eggs na nakahanda na sa mesa.

"You can cook?" I asked in awe sabay umupo sa isang bakanteng upuan at tinitigan ang iba pang pagkain na kanyang hinanda.

Nahihiyang napakamot naman si Chihiro sa kanyang batok. "He he. Konti lang, Sensei. Ako lang ang mag-isa dito at mahal ang takeout lagi kaya nagpaturo ako kay Ma-chan paano magluto ng mga simpleng lutuin," pagpapahayag nito at mas lalo pa siyang nahiya.

"Wow. I can't cook for myself," manghang siwalat ko. "Not even simple fried eggs."

[He's a lot younger than me but he's more reliable. It makes me jealous.]

"Handa akong turuan ka, Sensei!" Chihiro suddenly offered with great delight on his face. I could even see smokes coming out from his nose.

[He's really cute when he's like this, I felt chills running down my spine as soon as I thought of that. What the hell am I thinking? Acting all lovey-dovey like this over a food and so early in the morning, to boot? Am I going insane?! I was supposed to avoid Chihiro and stop giving false hopes but it's the other way around!]

Pinilit ko namang tapangan ang tindig ko bago tumikhim. "Anyways, you should've woken me up early, Chihiro," pag-iiba ko ng usapan. As expected, he reacted to that. The smile and excitement on his face faded away and was replaced with disappointment.

"Pasensiya na, Sensei. Naisip ko kasi na baka pagod ka at kailangan mong magpahinga," he apologized and even felt so guilty as if kasalanan niya kung bakit napagod ko.

[You, idiot. Stop making that face. I should be the one to apologize for crashing in to your place and even ended up sleeping over... right after I had sex with another guy. I'm the worst,] I helplessly thought. "Don't apologize. You'll make me hate myself more," I murmured but guess his hearing was too good.

Narinig kong binitawan niya ang hawak niyang sandok at masuyong hinawakan ang mga kamay ko bago sinabing, "Sensei, seryoso ako sa sinabi ko kagabi. Iwasan mo man ako o hindi kausapin, papatunayan ko pa rin ang sarili ko sa 'yo. Isa akong Omega at sa mata ng nakararami, wala akong kakayahang protektahan ang sarili ko pero nagkakamali sila. Matibay ako at sinisiguro ko na kaya kitang protektahan!" pagdedeklara nito. "Kaya pakiusap... huwag mong kamuhian ang sarili mo, sensei. Nandito ako," he said those with a sincere smile. I couldn't say no to that innocent face of his. Moreover to that very honest side of him. "Suki desu."

"Chihiro..." I slowly balled my hands into fists and mustered my courage to speak up. "Can you please sit down for a bit?"

"Eh?" naguguluhan niyang baling at napatingin kung saan-saan. I guided him to sit down on another vacant seat. And when he finally sat down, Chihiro was left skeptical and confused at the same time. How should I say this? [I got horny all of a sudden!] I exclaimed inside my mind.

I stared at Chihiro for some time before kneeling before him and said, "I'm sorry."

"Sensei?!" he abruptly reacted and got all flustered and excited. "H-hindi mo kailangang gawin 'to!" he stated but I ignored his panicked expression.

"This is who I am. I'm an Alpha who wants my ass to get rammed. Sorry for showing you this disgusting sight, Chihiro. But please... for the last time, let me suck you off and I promise I won't touch you anymore or make any indecent moves against you," I begged while having an aroused and vulnerable face in front of him.

I didn't know what got into me but the more Chihiro showed how much he loved me, the more I wanted to desire him. It was so wrong in many ways. His love was pure... mine was filled with lust. I didn't want to soil his love any more than this but he's turning me into a complete mess.

"Sensei..." His husky and deep voice uttering 'Sensei' right now was enough to make me cum.

"It's okay. I'll make this quick," pagpapakalma ko sa kanya at pagkatapos ay dinukot ang naninigas niyang pagkalalake mula sa loob ng suot niyang pajama at bahagya akong natawa. "You're already hard."

Tila nainis naman si Chihiro sa tinuran ko at nag-iwas ng tingin. "Oo naman! Kapag ikaw ang gumagawa nito sa akin awtomatikong nagre-react ang katawan ko!" depensa niya sa sarili at halos mangiyak na sa sobrang hiya. "At hindi ka nakakadiri, Sensei! Bawiin mo ang sinabi mo!" he added and even pouted like a kid.

"It's really unfair when you do that," I chuckled and began to lick the base of his shaft.

"Ungh-!" Isang impit at nagulantang na ungol ang pinakawalan ni Chihiro. I had already tasted and seen this huge thing he had but I was still amazed whenever I see it up close. The way it reacted with the slightest touch of my tongue... and how it would pulse when I played with it. Everything about Chihiro was just so honest.

And honestly too, I felt superior for making him become like this because of me.

I continued licking the base up to his tip. Chihiro would flinch and muffle soft groans every time. With my mouth now open, I took his manhood in down to my throat, bringing me the choking pain and intense pleasure from feeling his erection all at once. "Mmgh..." I lovingly moaned as I continued sucking his rod with such bliss.

[Why is he so big? I am so envious of this enormous thing he has!] Inis kong isip-isip.

"Sen-sei... Ngh!" he uttered and his big hands subconsciously grabbed and pulled my hair due to the pleasure he was receiving. With Chihiro forcibly making me swallow his shaft whole only made me more excited than before. [I want him inside me!] I screamed in my mind. I wanted to feel his hot manhood pounding inside me so hard until I passed out. I want him so bad!

After a few more rough thrusts, Chihiro finally came. He let all of his essence inside my mouth which quickly shocked him. "Sensei! Patawad!" taranta niyang pagpapaumanhin at nagmadaling humanap ng ipupunas sa mukha ko. May nahagip itong tissue at dali-dali itong inabot sa akin pero nagimbal siya nang makita niya akong lumunok. "Sensei...?" The horror on his face was utterly hilarious. I wanted to laugh at him so hard but Chihiro was so cute I could pinch his face. "A lot came out," I said with a smile, wiping off some of his cum that went to my cheeks.

Namula naman sa hiya si Chihiro. "Pasensiya na, Sensei! Nadala lang ako! Napaka-erotic mo kasi! Gomen!" sising-sisi niyang turan.

"No. It's all my fault so stop feeling so down while still having an erection," sabi ko habang nakatitig sa nakatayo pa rin nitong pagkalalake.

Chihiro quickly concealed his embarrassing erection by covering it with both of his hands. He's seriously adorable and unbelievably too earnest. The bully in me made me want to tease him more. "Kasalanan mo 'to, Sensei! Bakit ba kasi napaka-attractive mo kapag nalilibugan ka? Nakakainis dahil hindi ko alam ano ang gagawin para masabayan ko ang kalibugan mo. Gusto kong paligayahin ka rin pero kakaunti lang talaga ang experience ko sa sex. Aaah~! Ewan ko! Suki desu, Sensei! Patawad!"

"Pfft-!" I restricted myself from laughing out loud.

Napatingala naman si Chihiro sa akin na nagtataka sa ginawa ko. "Sensei?"

"I don't know what to do with you," natatawa ko na lang na ani at tuluyan nang bumuhakhak. Hindi ko na namalayan na napansin na pala ni Chihiro na tinigasan din ako sa ginawa namin kanina at hindi ko lang pinaalam sa kanya dahil wala naman talaga akong balak na mas paigtingin pa ang pag-iinit na nararamdaman naming pareho. I just had to suck him off because he was being so damn cute.

"Izumi-sensei..." he softly uttered.

"Hmm?" I stopped laughing and looked at him who now had his eyes looking down at something.

"Maaari ba nating ituloy?" nahihiya pa niyang paghingi ng permisyon habang titig na titig pa rin sa ibabang banda.

Taka naman akong napasunod kung saan siya nakatingin at laking gulat ko nang makita ang sarili kong nananabik na pagkalalake. It was twitching as hell. "Uh, ignore this. I'm going to take care of this thing myself in the bathroom," namumula ang buong mukhang saad ko sa kanya.

"Pero, sensei-"Upstodatee from Novel(D)ra/m/a.O(r)g

"It's fine, Chihiro," putol ko sa kanya. "You can continue cooking or whatsoever," pag-iiba ko na lang ng usapan nang mahagip ko na hindi tinapos ni Chihiro ang pagluluto kanina nang yayain ko siyang gawin ang bagay na ito.

Before he could argue, I hurriedly went inside the bathroom and executed a deep breath. That was close! If I stayed any longer, we could've done it all the way. If we did, mas lalo lang akong mahihirapan na iwasan si Chihiro. I'm so conceited. I made him like that and now I'm running like a coward.

This whole place is filled with Chihiro's smell. I should probably get out before I totally lose my control like last time.

[Now that I think about it, this place felt so cozy that it made me think that we were like a couple having a simple breakfast together,] I thought to myself and I felt like my chest was being squeezed tightly for some reason. "It's scary..." I whispered before a droplet of tear fell on the bathroom floor.