Through The Eyes Of My Alpha

Chapter 70

Through the eyes of my alpha Chapter 70

RILEY, 1 I knew Nadia had been on the phone often with Zahra, but I dared not listen to their conversation. It was enough that Nadia wasn’t pushing me to meet up with her. Because no matter how many times I thought things over, I just couldn’t seem to accept what she just told me. My father was not perfect, but I did look up to him.

He did everything for me, even the blood pact for Andrea, which was already extreme.

He did it to appease me.

It made me realize that I was my father’s son – he did everything I wanted so I would stay, to make up for the lies he gave me.

In the same way, I was doing everything to make everyone in my life stay with me.

My thoughts were interrupted by a knock on the door, and I let my Beta come in together with his mother, Katya.

I requested to meet Katya tonight just to have answers.

“Alpha,” Beta Dominic and Katya bowed their heads in respect.

“You can leave us, Beta,” I told Dominic, and he cocked his head to the side in submission before leaving the room.

I asked Katya to sit down the moment the door closed, and she chose to sit by the couch adjacent to my desk.

“How are you, Katya?

” I asked her, clasping my hands together and resting them on my desk.

“I’ve been excellent, Alpha.

And you?

You look better, son.

I’m glad you and the Luna have sorted out whatever was going on between you.

And congratulations on your pup!

” She beamed happily at me.

“Thank you.

I’m glad she’s back too.

” I nodded my head at her.

“Have you discussed the Luna Ceremony?

” “No.

Not yet.

There were many things that came when she came back.

Her pregnancy and another one, which was the reason I called for you.

” “Dominic told me.

I will tell you what I know, but to be honest, we were blind-sided too.

” “What do you mean?

” I asked, my forehead creasing at her words.

“We had no idea why Zahra left, no idea why she left you.

And we were prohibited from discussing anything related to her and what we saw before and after she left.

” “Tell me what you know.

” “Of course.

I’ve been waiting for you to ask me after your father passed away.

I’ll be honest with you.

Alpha, I still don’t understand why she left you when I’ve seen with my own eyes how she adored you.

” “Maybe she changed her mind and realized I would be just an obstruction for her.

” “No.

She would never think of you that way.

That day she left, I went home to find her luggage by the foot of the stairs and your small nursery bag.

I knew you were both leaving.

She told me and Nicole the day before.

And I thought you were both still here because of the luggage.

But then your father came out of his office carrying you and ordered my mate to take your luggage back to his room and Zahra’s luggage to the storage room.

That night, the Alpha asked for help in putting you to bed.

I was pregnant then with Dominic.

I put you to sleep since Nicole was already having a hard time breastfeeding Sebastian at that time.

We did as we were told, but we were not allowed to ask questions about your mother.

A day prior to that, Zahra confided that they were finally getting a divorce.

For a long time, we knew of the fights and that they were not intimate for a period of time.

So we knew it was coming, but Zahra never discussed any third party on her side or the Alpha’s.

So when the news broke out that she left the Alpha for another man, I didn’t want to believe it.

Until we saw pictures of her with another man.

But no matter how many times I told myself that she had abandoned you, I couldn’t seem to believe it.

I had known Zahra for almost my entire life.

She would never abandon you.

But then she never came to see you.

Over the years, I started to believe she actually did.

And now, I feel guilty for even thinking about it.

” Tears began to stream down her face.

She took a handkerchief from her pocket and wiped it away before she continued.

“Dominic told me what the Luna told him, and I kept crying that night.

I could only imagine what your mother went through not seeing you at all.

” “What else did Dominic tell you?

” I wanted to know if Nadia told Dominic about my parents’ not being fated mate.

“The Alpha command, that she tried to reach you but couldn’t get to you and that all her letters and gifts were returned.

” “Is that all?

” “Yes, Alpha.

” “Thank you.

That’s all I wanted to hear.

” “I’m sorry, Alpha.

If only I could do something…” “This was beyond your control, Katya.

You have nothing to apologize for.

You’ve been nothing but a blessing to me.

” She smiled, the motherly smile that she would always give me whenever I was sad or pissed off.

She and Nicole were the only females I listened to.

But even with them, I never showed any affection at all.

“Would it be too much if I asked for a favor, Alpha?

For permission?

” “Ask away.

” “I want to ask permission if I can meet Zahra.

Dominic told me where she’s living now.

And I was hoping I could visit her.

” Her shoulders started to shake as soft sobs escaped her throat.

” It’s been a long time since I saw my Luna.

Twenty-three years.

I hope you will understand.

It doesn’t mean my loyalty shifts.

You, above all, Alpha.

” “You don’t need to go to her.

I will bring her to you.

” I answered her in a firm voice.

I hadn’t made up my mind if I would meet her or not, but the words just slipped off my mouth.

And instead of being agitated by my slipping off, I felt the exact opposite.

I felt like a burden was lifted off my chest.

Maybe it was a good idea to meet her.

Maybe I would find my own peace if I could finally face the female that started the turmoil within me.

Katya looked at me with her eyes still glistening with tears, but a wide motherly smile was plastered on her face.

“It’s about time you met your mother, son.

It’s about time.

” pogo I had no idea how Nadia arranged for this, but just two days after we talked about the gifts, Timothy, one of my men, came to the packhouse with his van full of gifts.

And my fucking twenty-three-year-old self couldn’t hide the grin on my face.

I knew they were all for me.

And I was trying to hide my emotions inside, but Nadia’s and Jenny’s excitement was contagious.

“Luna, those are not yours.

You need to let the Alpha open it!

” Jenny blurted out as she giggled.

“I know!

But just so you know, I have never seen so many gifts like this in my whole life!

So I’m sure my mate, my Alpha, and the love of my life will let me open one, or maybe all.

Right, babe?

” She turned around, licking her lips as she winked at me.

I just nodded my head, grinning widely at her with my hands on my hips before winking back at her.

I then shifted my gaze away from her to the gifts being transported to my office.

“Timothy, these were thoroughly checked on the border?

” I just wanted to make sure they didn’t budge on the security protocol just because it was an order from their Luna.

“I personally checked on those.

All clear.

” Gamma Sebastian answered.

He and the Beta were helping carry the gifts as well.

“Wow!

This one is big!

” Jenny exclaimed, pointing to the one her mate was carrying “I’m guessing it’s a car you can drive,” I answered.

I already saw a part of the wheel from the ripped part of the gift.

“Oh, Goddess!

Can you imagine how much we can save with all these!

We don’t need to buy toys for our pup.

” Nadia exclaimed excitedly while clapping her hands, and I just shook my head, watching her with amusement.

The night was already calm and everyone retired to bed.

Nadia and I were on the fourth floor at the Luna’s library.

We decided to have the gifts transferred here for more privacy and because Nadia wanted to spend time in this place.

“It’s so cozy here.

” She scooted her body closer to mine before she covered her thighs with a fleece blanket.

We were sitting on the floor in front of the fireplace with a glass of rum in my hand while she was drinking milk in a wine glass.

The warmth of the fire dancing around us and the sparks from her body were just too perfect.

I could live for moments like this.

with my arms around her, I rested my chin on her shoulder as I looked at the gifts piled high on the floor beside us.

“Shall we start opening gifts?

” I asked.

“Yes!

” She exclaimed excitedly before I let her go from my arms.

She turned around and clinked her wine glass with mine.

“Happy birthday, Alpha.

Let’s open your gifts.

” I chuckled because my birthday was too far ahead, but I let her be.

I sipped my drink while watching her enjoy her milk before we put our focus on the task ahead.

Nadia grabbed one gift and read the card attached to it.

“Happy 3rd birthday, dearest Riley!

Mommy loves you.

” She smiled at me before she handed me the box, and I placed it on the floor and slowly unwrapped it with Nadia helping me out.

It was a sailor suit with a matching sailor hat and shoes, and a small anchor stuffed toy.

I bit my lower lip.

I couldn’t explain what I was feeling at the moment.

I smiled at my mate and put the gifts aside before nodding at her.

“Next one.

” “Happy 8th birthday, little Alpha.

I miss you and I’m wondering if you can ask Dad if I can take you to a theme park at Harley City.

It will just be for a few hours, and I’m sure you will love all the rides and games there.

Anytime, any day you want is okay with me.

Mommy loves you.

” “Happy 6th birthday, baby.

I dreamt of you a few nights ago.

You were chased by wolves, but instead of running away, you stopped and tamed them all.

I knew from that dream that you would be a great Alpha someday.

And it makes me proud.

I couldn’t wait for that day to come.

Take care always and remember, Mommy loves you.

” By the fifth gift, Nadia was already bawling in tears.

She kept apologizing and explaining that it was her pregnancy that was making her emotional, but I couldn’t blame her.

I was emotional too, I was just good at hiding it.

I let my eyes scan the open gifts around us and those that we were yet to open as I listened to Nadia read the rest of the cards in her hand.

She did try.

She did try to reach me.

My heart was clenching in pain, wondering how it would have felt if I had actually received those gifts on time and found out that my mother actually cared.

Would I turn out differently?

“Happy 15th birthday, my son.

I had no idea if you had already shifted by now or not.

But whether you did or you didn’t, please know that I am proud of you.

And in my dreams, I was there when you shifted into your wolf for the first time.

And my wolf, Ivory, was there to run with you.

I wish for the day it becomes a reality.

Perhaps one day it will happen, my son.

For now, I will hold you in my heart and pray to the Goddess that you will find it in your heart to forgive me for leaving you.

Whatever you have heard or will hear about me, just remember one thing: Mommy loves you.

And I always will.

” Tears began to trickle down my face as Nadia’s body pressed against mine.

Her arms coiled around my neck as her face rested on my chest, her shoulders shaking from her own sobs.

“It’s enough for tonight,” I told her, my hand brushing through her long hair.

She nodded her head before she tried speaking in between her sobs.

“I’m sorry.

.

.

” “Why?

You didn’t do anything wrong.

” “I can feel your pain, Riley.

And it’s breaking my heart too.

” “The only time something can be healed beautifully is if it gets broken.

I will heal, Nadia.

I just want you to stay with me and help with my healing.

” “I will be here.

Every step of the way.Content (C) Nôv/elDra/ma.Org.

” She answered in a soft voice, which was all I needed to hear.

As long as I have Nadia, I will learn how to forgive and move on.

One step at a time.