The Remorseful Brothers Novel

ANASTASIA

My palms flew to my mouth to silence my gasps. As I watched the lady continue to move ontop of Aiden, I took staggering steps back until my back came in contact with the wall on the other side of the hallway. I dragged my shivering hand away from my mouth, to my chest, where it stayed for a bit as I tried to calm myself down. However, it was pointless.

The more I watched, the harder my heart broke into pieces and the more it hurt.

I couldn’t watch anymore. I turned around and quickly walked away from his office before I’d be seen and further embarrass myself, also making sure that my shoes don’t as much as make a squeak on the ground.

As I made my way out of his floor and to the stairs, my eyes blurred with tears that I had been trying to hold back so I saw them. Now, as I climbed down the stairs, it was pouring down my cheeks, blurring my vision. It was harder to climb down the stairs as I couldn’t see well. I worried that I’d fall. So I took a seat on one of the steps and let my head fall in my cupped hands as I cried, my shoulder shaking with the intensity of my wails.

Though, no one except me and one of my colleagues who takes the stairs because she’s always trying to burn some calories, no one else’s takes the stairs, I still attempted to muffle my tears but it wasn’t working. My hiccups were loud and my aching heart sought to let out the pain in some way and the only way was for me to cry out until I lost my voice.

I didn’t want to draw any unwanted attention to myself so I bit down on 1 Exclusive © content by N(ô)ve/l/Drama.Org.

the sleeve of my dress and let the tears fall.

After a while, someone’s chatter reached my ears followed by a laugh in one of the floors below. I blinked. I thought I was the only one left.

Then I realized that I didn’t even want to be in here. I just want to be out of here, back in my house and curled in my bed. There, I coukd lick my wounds in whichever manner I wanted.

I stood up and wiped the tears from my face. I sniffed a couple of times to ensure that I wouldn’t have to do it infront of anyone.

The steps before me were endless and I remembered the number of steps I would have to descend before I’d reach the last floor. I shook my head. That would take so long. So, for the first time since the incident in the elevator, I opted for the lift. Damn my fears, I need to be out of this building as soon as possible.

As I marched to the lift, I let out a hiss as I felt my eyes water again.” What is wrong with me?” I cried as I angrily wiped my tears.

Why the hell do I have to be so pathetic? I thought as I stopped before the elevator. I pushed the required button and stepped in. Instead of the fear that I expected to grip me as the door closed, I was instead grateful for the privacy it provided and so my shoulders drooped as I let the tears fall anew.

Memories… the memories I always never wanted inundated me. Sweet memories of when Aiden and I were still so in love. Of when it felt like nothing could ever break us apart… These memories kept rushing in; Aiden’s laugh, the way he used to look at me like I was the only thing that mattered to him, of how a day would never go by without receiving a call from him, no matter how busy he was, all because he wanted to hear my voice…

My tears became hotter as they streamed down my face faster than ever, my heart squeezing tighter in my chest.

We had spent so many times debating over baby names. I remembered

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how I used to always wonder what he might have named Amie if he

was there with me.

Now I would never know because I threw him away because of my carelessness and my stupidity. I raised my fingers to my forehead again as I shut my eyes against the ache I was feeling in my head.

Suddenly, I noticed that the elevator stopped and I realized that my status as the sole rider in the lift was about to change.

I quickly raised my hands and sloppily wiped the tears and snot that I had allowed to flow freely.

I sniffed long and hard. And just as the elevator opened and revealed three of my colleagues, I pasted a bright smile on my face.