CHAPTER 15: Confusion
I walked away from him and his fortress, and as I did so, the heaviness on my chest suffocated me. My steps feel so heavy. A tear slid down my cheeks. I wanted to cry so badly. I bit my lower lip to stop the tears.
Why do I feel that way toward a stranger? I shouldn’t be affected this strongly by a one-night encounter. He and I haven’t even known each other for a week. My mind was in chaos and mixed emotions hit me. My sentiments for my ex-fiance were constantly running through my head.
I was walking straight ahead when the sound of a car suddenly reached my ears and not long after, a black ranger stopped in front of me. The window in the driver’s seat opened. And seeing the face of Cayden almost made me cry.
I desperately need a ride at this moment.
“Need a ride?” he asked, briefly glancing behind me.
I nodded and hurried to the other door. We quickly drove away from the area. When I looked in the side-view mirror, the castle was deserted. He might have gone inside.
“Why are you in this part of the woods early in the morning?” I asked as the car started to move.
Cayden shrugged. “Someone called me around the area”
I nodded and paid little attention, despite my mind thinking that it didn’t make sense for him to travel to this area of the woods that was cut off from most houses.
I closed my eyes and slumped down on the seat, feeling Cayden’s gaze on me. However, I lack the guts to tell him to ask his questions again because I know that his questions are something I can’t answer. Even I, for one, didn’t understand myself.
“We’re here,”
When I opened my eyes, I could see the cabin where I was staying. I turned to face him and smiled. “Thank you very much, Cayden”
As I was going to open the door, he grabbed my wrist.
“Jaidyn” he called.
I faced him expectantly.
“Don’t hesitate to talk to us about whatever is bothering or confusing you”
I nodded, “I know” and stepped inside.
As soon as I shut the door, I threw my heels and purse on the couch and went straight to the bathroom. I quickly undressed and stood under the shower. As soon as warm water touched my skin, tears started to stream down my face. I looked down and with tears in my eyes, I saw how the dirt on my feet washed off, the proof of where I came from. My gaze travels to my legs, stomach, and hips where red marks are visible.
I stepped back and leaned on the cold wall. I kept crying as cold water ran down my cheeks and mixed with my tears.
Anthony betrayed me. I am aware of that. Even though I am aware that what I did last night was perfectly acceptable, I still feel awful. It’s been less than two weeks since I broke up with my fiance, making it seem much too soon to be feeling this attraction to someone I’ve only known for one week.
I had assumed that spending one night with him would put an end to my desire for him, but when I saw him this morning lying next to me, I realized that it would not. My heart was racing as I looked at his calm face. Everything was so fast.
“This is so screwed up,” I whispered as I silently cried.
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Traian
I punched the wall next to the door as soon as I slammed it to let out the rage that had been building up. Even if my inner wolf wanted nothing more than to mark her and keep her in our sight, I hold myself back from hurling her over my shoulder, dragging her back inside my castle, into my bed and claiming her again, and telling her what she is to me. Damn, it takes a lot of willpower to do that, especially knowing that she was bare underneath those short dress of hers when she walked out of my room. Sleeping with her last night made the bond with her stronger and all the fiber in my body was urging me to mark her. I should have anticipated that it would be more difficult to refrain from seeking her after I claimed her body last night.
However, I don’t regret a single second of it. The way she made me feel, her smooth, soft skin and alluring curves, her groans, and screams as I licked her, and her sweet scent and cunt. I want it. All of it.
I have no idea why she behaves in such a manner, not knowing the reason for the sudden panic and anger I scent toward her before she left was driving me insane.
I put my head on the wall, taking a deep, slow breath, controlling my emotion. I can feel my eyes shifting from blue to gold. My wolf wanted to shift but I restrained him since I knew he would definitely charge to Jaidyn’s cabin. I don’t want to give her any more reason to be irate or avoid me.
With that in mind, I made my way to my room. And the moment I wrenched the door open, Jaidyn’s sweet and enticing essence assaulted my senses. Her scent filled my room, and I instinctively close my eyes, taking in the scent. It was enough to calm me and my wolf.
However, it also shows how difficult it would be to resist the need, with the impulse eradicating any sense of reason in me until I claimed her as mine. I need to claim her as soon as possible and that involves revealing my secret to her.
To calm my racing thoughts, I walked to my bathroom, undressed, and stood under the shower. The strain that had been accumulating in my shoulders since this morning, which was wanting to take Jaidyn once again, was released when hot water beads crashed down on them, relieving me of the ensuing frustration.
I find myself replaying last night whenever I think about her. How delicately smooth her waistline’s dip was. Her moans as I took the zipper off the short, cunty dress that had clung to every curve of her body. When she called my name as I feasted on her pretty cunt that was dripping wet for me. Her screams as I pounded on her.
“Jaidyn” I grunt while my eyes were closed and with my hand wrapped around my cock, giving it a steady, tight stroke.
I was even more turned on by the images of her in that red thong. She was so sexy and perfect to me. I put my other hand with fingers spread wide on the hard wall tile while sliding my palm up and down my length, allowing the dream of having her again to consume me.
…….
I heard a knock on my door even though I was still in my room thanks to my werewolf’s hearing. And I can figure out who is behind those oak doors. I put on a shirt, get down, and immediately make my way to my bar in my large residence. I poured myself a glass of one of my favorite beverages, Macallan whiskey, and drank it all at once. I’m in desperate need of a drink.
My ears picked up the sound of footsteps, and then Cayden appeared. He takes the stool right next to me and pours himself a drink.
“Did you bring her-”
“Safely? Yes, I am” Cayden said, shaking his head.”You know I won’t put her in harm’s way, Traian.”
“I still feel the need for confirmation,”
I mindlink him to come into my house to drive Jaidyn over to her house sooner since there is no way I would allow her to walk alone while wearing that tight dress and knowing that she is bare beneath.Belonging © NôvelDram/a.Org.
Cayden said with a grin. “Right, an indication of overprotectiveness,”
I finished off my second round of whiskey. “I can’t understand her. She wanted distraction one second and she will step back ten steps the next”
“You’ve been without female interaction for a while, Traian,” Cayden chuckled. “You screwed them, and that was it.”
I spat, a little annoyed, “Because I don’t want anything to do with them”
I am merely a man with a need in his 400 years of life, and I take it to women who are ready to give me the relief I need. And thinking it back with my mate around, a sense of shame began to grow inside of me.
“Now you know her reason” Cayden stated seriously.
I look at him with my jaw clenched and brows scrunched together “What do you want to say?”
He lamented, “Jaidyn came from a fresh breakup, Traian. I don’t know, but from a few conversations I’ve had with her, I can tell she has a strong love for her fiancé.
At the mention of the human, my grip on my glass tightened. I demand, “Get to the f*cking point”
“Because of the mate bond, I know she was feeling attraction towards you. Her breakup and her love for her fiance, however, undoubtedly only serve to further her confusion at this time, Traian. She was afraid and confused about her feelings. Because someone falling for a man in a matter of days was very unusual for a human, especially after a breakup”
I pour myself another drink, listening intently.
“Jaidyn was probably afraid and confused right now”
“How the heck do you know all of this?”
With a chuckle, Cayden raised his glass and said, “It’s all owing to Claire’s lesson every time we watch some corny and sappy series. She occasionally acts as the show’s narrator and psychotherapist for all the characters.”
I smirked and said, “I had no idea you were into it.”
He shrugged, “It’s surprisingly interesting though”
A grin spreads over my face as I shake my head. Now, I have a bit of a grasp of what’s going on.