The Glimpse of My Past

Diane’s P. O. V.

Liam kissed my lips softly until it deepened passionately. My mind was fluctuating, but it didn’t prevent me from thinking that it wasn’t just a simple kiss. I was stunned for a moment, but soon after, I closed my eyes while feeling the strange heat in my body that turned me to be feverish. I didn’t know what to do anymore, and I couldn’t control myself from responding to him when our kisses became rigidly torrid. 

Restraining myself did not even affect me from clasping my arms around his neck while warmly reciprocating all of his kisses. No matter how my mind urged me to stop, my body had its own response. I didn’t know how to kiss fervently, as I didn’t have any experience, but Liam seemed to be teaching me automatically. He was a great kisser, making my reflexes just went with the flow.

Keeping up with Liam’s every move, I gasped and emitted a short moan when his tongue began to play with mine. It felt like a small battle, and with my conviction not to be defeated by him, my tongue fought back until he sexily groaned. My hands began to roam around his brawny biceps until my fingers stroked around his chest, having close access to remove the buttons of his long-sleeved polo.

I had never been this wild all my life, and I didn’t know how I was able to make out with him now. All I knew was, I really loved Liam. He suddenly ignited something in me I never thought existed. I would never want this night to end.

Now, I was able to feel the experience of what people used to call an odd yet intoxicating sensation caused by kissing the one you loved. I loved this feeling, and if given another chance, I would want to lose my mind again while being with Liam. It was hot, delicious, and sensually fun. I didn’t think I could have anything else to ask.

Soon after, Liam’s hands wandered around my neck and down to my shoulders. Those caressed my arms until he had easy access to my chest by slowly unhooking the buttons of my blazer. I wore it earlier when the two of us came out of the restaurant because of the night’s shiver.

Liam’s hands continued to explore my front until he was able to grasp one of my breasts covered by a thin and skin-toned brassiere. The sleeves of my off-shoulder blouse deliberately dropped down as I could feel those on my elbows. I couldn’t help but release a short moan like I was out of breath, feeling intoxicated.

He was able to remove my blazer and threw it wherever in the car. I didn’t know where I placed the dream catcher that he gave me right after I trapped his neck with my arms. Our lips were still sharing an intimate contest where his tongue continued to shove and explore my mouth, causing my arousal. And while he was doing that, Liam didn’t fail to touch my cheeks, neck, waist, and arms with great care and love.

My short moans suddenly became loud whimpers as I couldn’t help myself to arch my back on what we were doing inside his car, most especially when his lips fell from my jaw down to my neck. I could feel that Liam sucked and nibbled on my skin, making me feel so wet.

But as much as I wanted to succumb to this strong and intensifying pleasure that was reigning between the two of us, I could not. It was not even possible. The excitement switch on my mind had suddenly turned off upon having some realizations. I was not ready yet, so as long as I could prevent to get laid tonight, I must restrain myself before everything got worse.

Because of that, I pushed him on the chest.

I swallowed a few lumps on my throat as my chest heaved. I couldn’t help but gasped for air while waiting for my breathing to get steady.

“God! I-I’m so sorry, Diane. Look, the kiss was only supposed to be a punishment for calling me ‘sir’ again back in the restaurant. But I wasn’t able to control myself, I-I got carried away. I might look so defensive right now but let me explain myself.” He paused for a while before he continued.

“I kissed you, so I should take all the blame. In the first place, I should not go beyond that kiss. Will you forgive me? I’m really sorry,” he apologized as we fixed ourselves. Mixed guilt and sincerity were evident in his voice.

Lost in Liam’s enthralling kisses and touch, I did not realize that I was able to remove all the buttons on his long-sleeved polo. His chest and six-pack abs were already exposed, somewhat inviting me to touch those.

Since the sleeves of my blouse reached under my elbows, I could feel that the garter of my off-shoulder top suddenly loosened up the moment I fixed it. It was quite embarrassing that my strapless bra and huge cleavage were already showing in front of him. Fortunately, his car windshield was darkly tinted.

Liam opened the lights and slightly touched my collar bone with remorse. “I’m sorry, I stained your gorgeous skin.”

That prompted me to warily open my bag and bring out my compact powder mirror. I looked that part over the reflection and found a reddish hickey slightly under my collar bone. I searched for my blazer, and including the dream catcher, I found it beside my right foot. I immediately wore it, making sure that no one could see my mark as it was truly suspicious.

It might be my first time to make out with someone, but I wasn’t too innocent to know that what he gave me was a kiss mark. If Mom would see this, Liam could never step again inside our house.

“It’s okay, Liam. I forgive you, so there’s nothing to worry about. It’s my fault too that I wasn’t able to control myself. After all, we both did this,” I replied, trying to avoid his pretty glances.

“I don’t know what’s happening to me, Diane… to think that I only met you last night. I don’t want to go beyond our friendship, but I can no longer understand how I feel for you. I can’t cheat my own feelings. I can’t lie. I was trying so hard to hide it, but it still shows.” He took a deep breath before he continued.

“I know that things are going tremendously fast right now, but I think I’m falling for you. I want you to stay with me. I want to be with you, everywhere I go. But I know I can’t because I have no rights at all!” Liam sounded desperate as he confessed to me.

Is he really confessing his feelings for me? Oh my God! I couldn’t believe it, but I didn’t want him to take those words back.

Silence prevailed between the two of us, as I could no longer hear anything despite the racing sound of my heartbeats. I was supposed to be happy, but why does it seem that I suddenly got scared of what might happen next? Liam’s sibling was Leandro, who had been in love with me for a long time already… and I didn’t want their relationship as brothers to be ruined all because of me!

“Do you also feel something for me, Diane?” Liam bluntly asked.

Gradually meeting his eyes, I felt like I was blushing again. But it didn’t get past a few seconds that I boldly nodded to him. I knew, and I was sure of how I felt for Liam, that I would be one great hypocrite if I would deny my feelings. It was like a fire igniting inside me where I could no longer hide the fume that was coming out from me.

“If that’s the case, then…” Liam smiled while blinking back some light tears. He held my hands and said, “Be my girlfriend.”Content held by NôvelDrama.Org.