The Broken Warrior's Daughter

As easy as my pregnancy was, adjusting to having a baby has been difficult for me. It’s supposed to be easy, right? Everyone says it comes naturally. Well I’m here to tell you, it doesn’t always come naturally. Like latching on to my breast. Cara is supposed to have some instinct to latch on and my body is supposed to be what she needs, but we struggled.

It took weeks for us to figure it out and countless tears on my part.

‘Don’t get frustrated, she’ll feel it.”

‘Don’t give up, you can do this.”

‘Don’t do this, don’t do that, try it this way, try it that way.”

Everyone has a damn opinion about how I should nurse my child or what I’m doing wrong. All it did was

make me feel more like a failure that it wasn’t working.

After another bout of crying about being a worthless mother who can’t do the one thing my body is

inherently meant to do, feed my child, Clint comes and takes her from me. He heats up a bottle, balancing our little girl while managing to heat up the bottle and test it. He’s a natural. I’d love watching him if it

didn’t make me feel even more like a failure.

He walks out of our room, and I stand up, putting my breast back into my top and walking to the

bathroom to splash water on my face to wash away my tears. My face is in the towel, drying off when

Clint comes back in.

“Come on, Lily bud. We’re going for a run.” He tells me, coming up behind me and wrapping his arms

around me.

“Where’s Cara? We can’t just leave her.”

“She’s with Calista and yes, we can. I told her you need to get out and run. You’re too stressed out and

this will help. Andra hasn’t been out in months and Donovan misses his mate. Come on.” Content from NôvelDr(a)ma.Org.

‘He’s right. I miss Donovan too.‘ Andra tells me.

“Okay.”

Clint takes my hand and I follow my mate down the stairs and out the back of the packhouse. My breasts

are huge with milk, or at least huge for me, so I’m uncomfortable stripping like I normally would. I walk to the tree line and Clint follows me. He waits until I shift, it takes a few moments longer than normal while Andra and I adjust to the slightly different shape of my body.

Once I’ve shifted, Donovan is beside us in an instant. Andra takes off and the feeling of the air flowing through her fur, the scents and sounds of the forest, bring a calm to me that I didn’t know I was missing. We run for hours, Donovan and Andra taking time to reconnect and mate several times while we’re out.

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When we finally stop at the lake. Clint shifts back. He waits for me to shift as well before wrapping his

arms around me.

“Feel better, Lily bud?

“Much. How did you know?”

He kisses my forehead. “I know my mate. You want to be the best at everything. But you are perfect, just the way you are.”

I lean into him, missing our time together. I take a deep breath, breathing in his scent of apple pie. Goddess, I love his smell. His hands begin to rub up and down my body, slowly, gently. We make love beside the lake in our spot, the spot where we first connected as mates. When Clint pushes my body over the edge of bliss, I sink my teeth into his mate mark, making him growl his pleasure before he sinks his canines into my mark. This is what I needed. This reconnection with my mate, my life, my love. Everything in my world rights itself and I feel like I can breathe for the first time since Cara was born.

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