The Alpha’s Substitute Mate

Malcolm

I ran a hand through my hair and raised an eyebrow at him, I shot at him mercilessly

” Do you know the kind of pain, you made her go through every time you fucked around?”

He stared at me, and in his eyes, I could see pain, hurt, and regret. He dropped weakly on the chair opposite mine and let his head drop to the desk with a loud bang. ” I messed up, big time,” he mumbled

” I had to show her that I didn’t need her. I had to show her that the mate bond was dead to me. I had to show her I was in charge.” He mumbled into the wooden desk top.

“But the truth is I needed her all the time. I needed her more than life itself. Every time I laid eyes on her, I wanted her. Her voice was like a healing balm to my hardened soul. And her smile was the most beautiful and alluring.

She was the only one that made me feel out of control, and I hated her for it. I hated her for invading my dreams, my thoughts, and my body.

I wanted to punish her for making me weak, I wanted to punish her for making my heart and soul feel what I thought I was immune to. I wanted to punish her for being too loving.” He balled his hands up into a fist.Upstodatee from Novel(D)ra/m/a.O(r)g

” But no matter how bad or cruel I was to her, she never frowned or showed any sign of anger. She would always look me straight in the eyes and smile, making me feel more worthless and weak.

When I found out that she was carrying my child, our child. A part of me was filled with joy at the thought of being a father but it would also mean being vulnerable and I didn’t want that, so I decided to punish her by making her lose our pup. I have failed Isabella as a husband and Alpha.

I battered and bruised her till she couldn’t stick around for such treatment. She was worth way more, so much more.”

He wailed ” I didn’t want her close, but I didn’t want her far away either. And now she left me for good, she walked out of my life and out of my heart.” He punched the wall in a bid to lessen his pain.

I felt a thrill knowing that she had rejected Arden. I also felt a stab of guilt, he was my brother and he was suffering but I couldn’t feel too bad, because he had caused his own misery.

Fate had dropped this perfect woman right in his path, in his life, and he ruined it. He wrecked the perfect gift the Moon goddess presented to him, all because he was so intoxicated with power and control. Even the goddess cannot help him at the moment. His loss was potentially, my gain.

I closed my eyes, resting my head on the wooden desk. I missed Bella. I missed her so badly that I would pay any damn price to have her right here, next to me.

I didn’t even think that it was ever possible to miss someone, almost as if you needed them to survive. That was exactly how I felt. I missed my mate so badly. I thought about the sweet smiles that would pop onto her lips as she slept. I remember sneaking into her chambers to watch her sleep.

She was the star of my fantasy. She drove me crazy and she is my kryptonite.

Would I ever find her? It seemed to be more and more unlikely with every passing day.

How was it that three people had completely fallen off the face of the earth without any trace or information about them?

Our last glimpse of them had been on the video surveillance around the pack territory but the CCTV was somehow disconnected and the tracking system was disabled in the car they took. We couldn’t tell which direction they headed. They couldn’t possibly be hiding in any of the neighboring packs, if not Arden would have been informed immediately. Where on earth would they be hiding?

What would I do if I found her? I would be torn between going against my brother Arden and bonding with my mate. I made a mistake by holding onto my loyalty to my brother from the start. I should have announced the mate bond between us to the whole pack. Maybe I should have run away together with her, we would have been together but I was a fool for letting her out of my sight.

I was a fucking moron for letting such treasure slip away from my life. I don’t care how long it takes but I will definitely find her. Even if it means shedding the last drop of my blood to find her, I will gladly do it.

Mum had been inconsolable. She had been pale and withdrawn since the incident. She hardly comes down for her meals and she prefers locking herself in her chambers. She had lost two of her favorite people, her daughter-in-law whom she was very fond of, and her last son. She seems to be a shadow of herself and rarely engages in conversation. No one dared mention either of them in her presence because she would burst into tears.

A few days later, I noticed something strange about Mum. She appeared at the breakfast table and she was back to her old self and was absolutely glowing. Her eyes were sparkling, her lips kept twitching into a smile. And she was once again as charming and animated as ever. I watched her suspiciously and wondered why Dad and Arden had not noticed the sudden change in her demeanor. I knew she was up to something and if I had to take a guess, I would bet that they had found a way to communicate with Mum in secret.

I began to plan and strategize. I had to figure out a way to get Mum to reveal what she knew and to reveal it alone to me but Mum could be very secretive and I doubt she would agree to tell me anything because of the fear of Arden.

But I won’t let this opportunity of finding my mate slip away. I decided to monitor her closely, she was my only source of unraveling my mate’s destination.