The Accidental 40
I saw fear in Juhan's eyes when Rosie gasped in surprise. He was scared that she might reject him, but I knew my daughter. She was just shocked. She had always wanted to meet him and since I had never given her a specific time for meeting him, she was startled. "He is finally back?" she exclaimed as she looked at me, letting go of the teddy bear the was holding.
"He is finally back I nodded vigorously. "He came to see you this morning in the amusement park, but didn't want to tell because he saw how much you were enjoying your day."Content (C) Nôv/elDra/ma.Org.
Rosie didn't say anything; however, she got up from her place and made her way towards him. Julian knelt in front of her and I watched the way the two of them looked at each other. Could he see that she had his eyes?
"Do you plan on going to that place again you were in?" Rosie quietly asked him. She made guilt eat me alive without even knowing.
"No. I'm done working there. I don't want to work there anymore," he told her, smiling
She didn't say anything but slowly closed the gap between them as she wrapped her linte arms around his heck. I saw the way his eyes glistened as he took her in his arms.
Looking at them made me realize the cruelty of my actions and I wondered if I would have done the same thing if I could turn back time.
"Are you going to live with us!!" my daughter excitedly asked Julian, startling me. 1 hadn't prepared myself for that question.
"No, cupcake, but you can come to my place whenever you want," he told her. The way Rosie started playing with her lingers told me that she did not like his answer.
"Aren't you at least going to stay the night?" Her voice got quieter. If somebody had the ability to make me do anything, it would be Rosie.
"He can stay here for the night if he wants," I blurted and he looked at me in surprise.
"Please stay!" she begged him.
"Can't say no to you, Rosie." He grinned, picking her up. My daughter grinned as she lazily wrapped her arms around his neck.
"Are you two ready to have dinner?" I asked them, getting up from my place.
"Yes!" Rosie nodded vigorously.
"I can't wait to eat your food again," Julian said, looking me in the eye. I looked down, not knowing what to tell him.
I would be lying if I said that I didn't notice it, but I saw the way he was looking at me. It was the same way he once used to look at me, as if there was nobody else in the room but me.
I put the plates on the small dining table, then reached for my phone.
"Hey Matt! Just wanted to let you know that Rosie has finally met her father and she insisted that he should stay the night."
I didn't want to keep something like that away from him. I knew that he wouldn't like the idea, but I couldn't tell Rosie no. It was her first time to sec Julian and I wasn't going to prevent her from spending the night with hirn. "Mommy, aren't you going to sit down?" Rosie asked. I looked up and saw her sitting beside Julian.
"Sorry, sweetheart. I was sending a text to Man," I told her, making my way to the table.
"Your boyfriend?" Julian inquired and all I did was nod. His face said it all. He wasn't fond of the fact that I had a boyfriend, but he needed to understand that I was no longer his "Do you live far away?" Rosie asked Julian.
"Not that far, cupcake," he assured her.
-Rosie, if you want to see Daddy at any time, just tell ПHг addressing the two of them with what I said.
and I will take you to see him. He is also more than welcome to see you here. I was
"You don't know how much I miss your food," Julian told me. He used to tell me that he loved my cooking more after our divorce. I always wondered if anything between us was real. ne more than
anything in the world, but
"Enjoy your meal." I offered him a polite smile.
I didn't know how I was supposed to act around him. There were so many walls around us that he wanted to bring down, but I couldn't do that. He needed to suederstand whitever we once had was meant to stay in the past. da we were rating.
ag, the dombell rang
I got up from my place and in ide my way towards the door. I looked through the peephole and frowned.
when I saw Man What was she doing here?
I opened the door with confusion obvious on my face. When I sent him the message, it wasn't an invitation for him to join us. I just wanted him to know that my ex was here. I would want to know if he had his ex over "What are you doing here, Matt!" I calmly asked him.
"You have your ex over and you think I would stay calm?" he was trying to control his anger, which was unjustified in my opinion.
"Yes, because supposedly, you trust me and you should know that I won't cheat on you" I pointed out, folding my arms over my chest. His tense bly relaxed and guilt took over his face.
"I trust you. I didn't mean it like that. I just.. I don't trust him. I don't even know who the man is," Matt said, taking a deep breath.
"You know him. You know that Rosie's father is Julian Kensington," I reminded him. I didn't exactly tell him who her father was before, but it was easy for him to put two and two together. When I revealed my identity, he found out who my ex was. Before that, I didn't tell him anything about my old life.
*And as far as I know, the man is still in love with you I hated that he was right.
"But I'm not in love with him. Matt, and you know that." I wasn't in love with Julian. What we once had died the moment he accused me of cheating and threw me out
"Has he tried anything!" Matt asked, Impatience evident in his voice.
"Anything like what?" I frowned.
"Like kissing you." He was blunt.
"No, Matt He respects me and my wishes," I jumped to his defense. "Mait, I promise, I'm fine. Julian won't do anything. He is here for his daughter, not me. Had it not been for Rosie, I wouldn't have let him stay. I know that if I ask you to stay, you will, but there will be tensi He stayed silent for a few moments, then finally nodded. He approached me, took me in his arms, and kissed my lips. I kissed him back, but I hated the foreign feeling that took over me.
"Goodnight, Amy," he said, smiling at me.
I closed the door and made my way back to Julian and Rosie.
"What took you so long?" Rosie asked me.
"It was Uncle Matt," I told her. Julian's eyes met mine and I saw the control he had ove his emotions.
"Is he going to have dinner with us?" I shook my head at her question
"Am I causing you trouble?" Julian asked.
"No, everything is settled. Matt trusts me." I didn't even realize how he might take what I had just said. I didn't mean it in any malicious way
After my relationship with Julian, I realized that the thing I started to look for in people was trust. What he has done traumatized me because I realized that throughout our relationship, there was always some sort of distrust. I remembered our first Thanksgiving and how he "I'm glad that you've found your happiness," Julian said with pure sincerity in his voice.
As the night passed, I couldn't help but wonder if I had truly found my happiness