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The two women shared a good laugh, then went back to the bedroom. Looking at the bed, Kelly saw that Duncan wasn’t there and looked over at Kara curiously.
“Not sure,” she replied to the unspoken question. “He wasn’t in the house when I woke up. I checked with Danielle, but she’s got Steve and Conner sleeping in there with her. The only other ones I saw were you and Howard.”
“He might have gone to run an errand,” Kelly suggested with a shrug. “He wasn’t upset, was he?”
“No, not when we were finished.” She studied Kelly with an intelligent, knowing look for a few moments before continuing. “You’re worried that he didn’t like something about today?”
Kelly didn’t answer.
“Honey, he said to bring Howard over. Didn’t you tell me that Duncan was the one that spoke privately with your boss about using you as he saw fit?”
“Yeah, a while ago,” Kelly confirmed. She dismissed the growing concern and shook her head. “You’re right. I’m overthinking.”
“Hey,” Kara said, moving close and pushing her chin up so that they were staring into each other’s eyes. “I’m sure he’s fine. We’ll make sure to talk to him tonight, okay?”NôvelDrama.Org owns © this.
Kelly smiled, then kissed her and went to go and see if her former boss had made it out fine.
***
Several hours later, Duncan came back in from wherever he’d been and waved at Kelly and Kara as they sat talking on the couch.
“Hey baby,” Kelly called, glancing over at Kara.
“You been outside this whole time?” Kara asked.
He nodded with a smile. “I had some excess energy I guess, and I didn’t want to intrude on anyone and make things awkward for Howard. I was out in the barn working on your cars.”
“Come here,” Kelly bade him, reaching her hand out.
“I stink so bad, you might actually divorce me if I join you now,” he said.
“Bullshit, come here,” she called out. “I miss my hubs.”
He chuckled and sighed then turned and joined the two on the couch. Both girls immediately leaned into him and made him smile.
“You sure you were okay, honey?” Kelly asked, her hand straying up to brush his sweat soaked hair from his forehead.
He frowned and hesitated a moment before responding.
“We promised each other that we’d be truthful when we were talking about this stuff, so I’m going to be. But please, don’t think that I’m upset, okay?” He turned to look at her as he spoke, his concern for her clear in his expression.
“Okay,” she said, worried despite his attempt to assuage her fear.
“I was… I don’t know… surprised, I guess?” He sighed. “I wasn’t upset or hurt. I know that.” Another long pause followed, and he shook his head. “This is so stupid. We’re all three part of a swinger group, and you let me have sex with anyone at the drop of a hat. We’ve both got a live-in girlfriend that we’re trying to have a baby with, as well as a submissive that is verifiably insatiable.”
“What is it?” she asked.
“I honestly… I don’t know,” he replied. “I came to the door after waking up and sneaking out of our bedroom so that I didn’t wake up Kara, and I saw you on the floor with Steve and Conner. I hadn’t even known they were there. I felt like I was intruding though and got dressed and went outside to do some work. But like I said, I wasn’t hurt, I wasn’t mad, I wasn’t jealous… I just felt the need to get out of the house.”
She began to feel like she’d really hurt him then, and he just couldn’t bear to tell her. She sniffed and felt a tear creep down her cheek despite her attempts to control her emotions.
“Baby, please don’t be sad,” he said, shaking his head. “I promise you; I wasn’t upset about it. I… I don’t know what it was that made me go outside.”
She shook her head and brushed away her tear. “That’s exactly what it sounds like, Duncan.”
He shook his head. “No, it’s not. I swear. I know what that feels like. It wasn’t like that. It was like… I was mad at myself, but I can’t figure out why. I mean, all I was doing was waking up from a nap and seeing you doing what all three of us are free to do with any of our mutual friends at any time! I mean… I have no reason at all why I should be irritated at all. In fact, I can remember distinctly feeling arousal when I saw you sucking on Steve while Conner fucked you. It’s just that I… I guess I started disliking myself and had to go focus on something else. Like… my brain didn’t want to try and think about it in that moment.”
She sighed. “Honey…”
“No… Kelly… I’m not lying or trying to spare your feelings. I promise I wasn’t mad or hurt. I just… I’ve never been able to decipher my own feelings, much less anyone else’s. I don’t know…” he turned and looked at Kara. “Do you know what I’m saying?”
She nodded. “I think I get it.”
Both Kelly and Duncan turned to face her, and she couldn’t help but smile when she felt her husband’s hand caressing her thigh comfortingly.
“You guys started out slowly and have worked up to this point. You’re both fine with the other sharing themselves with people, even filming porn with relative strangers. I don’t think the problem is that you’re getting jealous of each other doing sexual things with others. I think what’s bothering you is that you feel guilty.”
He frowned. “But we decided to do this together,” he said.
“I know, but who really has the power in your marriage?” she asked. Kelly saw him frown and gesture back at her. “Does she though?” Kara asked. “She’s a naturally submissive woman. She likes to be the one doing the serving, whether it’s making a meal or having sex with people. You’re the dominant one. You’re never on the other side of it. But you being considerate of things your wife and I want doesn’t make us the ones that have the power in our relationship.”
“I’m not following,” he said with a shake of his head.
“Let me say it as plainly as I can,” Kara said, clearing her throat and falling silent for a moment to gather her thoughts. “Kelly and I are a lot alike. I think that in your head, there’s a different way you approach the two of us now. With me, we’re trying to get pregnant. So… naturally you treat me softer, gentler. You take care of me and give me lots of affection and more personal time than you do with your wife. But… with Kelly… you’re seeing her differently now. You aren’t trying to get her pregnant, leaving out the details of why, and now she’s exploring herself and being more and more free. She’s a free-spirited swinger wife now.”
Kelly began to understand what Kara was getting at and nodded in response. “So, before Kara, when you would see me being slutty, your brain would only have one type of relationship to work with and you’d get turned on.”
“But now,” Kara continued, “you have two. I think what’s happening is that you’re feeling too many things because she and I are so much alike. It’s hard for you to separate the two. Like, the way you feel about me now, is also the way you used to feel toward Kelly. And I don’t mean that you love me more or anything.”
Kelly nodded. “Exactly. What she means is that you see me having sex and get turned on, but also feel that love and affection for me. But at the same time, you also feel that way about Kara and that’s even more powerful because you’re trying to get her pregnant. I think that you can see me trying new things and you’re supportive, but at the same time you don’t want it to happen because your emotions get mixed up.”
“So… earlier when I saw Kelly doing what I wanted her to start doing so many months ago and had the compulsion to get out of the house, you’re saying that my emotions and subconscious were intruding on each other’s territory and I saw the woman I was trying get pregnant having sex with multiple other guys?”
Kelly looked at Kara and smirked, her surprise clear.
“Precisely,” Kara said. “I also think that you’re also worried about Kelly being hurt by me being pregnant. Of course, that’s a completely valid fear.”
He was quiet for a while, looking down at his hands and digesting the information.
“I’m sorry,” he said, looking at one and then the other. “Both of you.”
“You don’t need to be sorry,” Kara said. “That’s why we’re talking about it, so that you don’t have to be sorry for doing something.”
Kelly nodded in agreement. “So… do you think maybe we need to slow down so that he can adjust properly?”
Kara began to speak as she was nodding but Duncan cut them both off.
“Absolutely not,” he said, shaking his head. “No… that’s not something I want. I love that you two share yourselves and let me do the same. It’s become part of our lives and honestly, I don’t think we’d know how to stop if we really wanted to. I think we’d hurt a lot of people as well.”
“Duncan, it’s okay for us to take a break,” Kelly said. “I don’t have to do these things. I mean, yeah, I like being naughty and pushing your buttons a little, but I love you and Kara so much. I don’t want to lose either of you.”
“That’s what I mean,” he said. “You love doing this. I love doing this, Kara does too. Why would we stop? I think as long as we keep talking things out and we don’t jump to conclusions about things that bother us, I think we’ll be fine. I mean… don’t get me wrong, if you two are wanting to stop, I’m completely happy to only have sex with the two of you for the rest of my life.”
Kara smiled and leaned into his shoulder. “I’m happy to stop with you two right now,” she said quietly. “But I do love going to the group.”
“Me too,” Kelly admitted.
“Perfect,” Duncan said, then turned to look at Kelly. “I know how much you love doing the things you do, honey. I really hope you don’t think I want you to stop doing videos or pushing your boundaries.”
“I think we just need to make sure that we talk to each other before we do something that’s really new,” Kara added.
Kelly nodded. “I promise,” she said.
After a round of kissing and whispered declarations of love for one another, Kara sat back up straight and looked over at the two.