Sold to my crush

Lily’s POV

“Alex dear would you please pass the salt to me”. Tiffany said with a wide grin on her face, her voice increasing an octave higher.

Alex and Tiffany had walked through the door together chatting and Tiffany giggled at every word from Alex like a blind whale. she walked clumsily tripping every two seconds but I guess it was on purpose just so she could land on Alex.

Alex feigned ignorance every single time she did that as he obviously enjoyed the attention and allowed her to run her hands all over them or perhaps he was just oblivious to it. But regardless it irked me so much.

I was in the sitting room watching on of my favorite shows when they walked in. They continued chatting as they walked side by side to the kitchen where Susan was, completely ignoring my existence. I was deeply hurt that Alex could not even care enough to spare me a glance even though the real reason why I was in the sitting room was to wait for him.

They got into the kitchen and Susan directed Tiffany to the room she would be staying which was very close to the room where Alex and I share. Let me rephrase that, her room was close to mine, since technically Alex is never there so it’s mine.

When they all moved upstairs to show Tiffany to her room, I quickly joined them, walking quietly behind. They continued ignoring me and I did the same but nothing could have prepared me for next thing that happened. I watched as Tiffany got into her room with Alex tailing behind her as though he was a lost puppy.

My heart twisted in pain at the sight. Alex who was never at home, Alex who barely slept in the same room with me. All of sudden decides to sleep at home today and with Tiffany !!!!

Some say denial kills but I guess that’s just an understatement because it doesn’t just kill you and set your free, it tortures you before burning you alive. That’s what denial does.

I couldn’t believe my eyes and what my mind was telling me. But the sick grin Susan flashed at me before walking away was enough prove so I began banging at the door desperately. I cried as I called out to Alex begging him to come out.

After a while the door was roughly pulled open, revealing a very shirtless Alex and my mouth went dry. “Get out”. Those were the only two words he spoke to me before banging the door close and a click of the lock was heard.

Those two words were more than enough to get me out of denial. I shifted back, staggering, as I held on to the wall for support, wondering what I did wrong and why Alex never saw me.

I cried bitterly as I walked into my room curling myself into a ball. I cried for while soaking my pillow as I thought about the 165 scenarios that could be happening in Tiffany’s room. I carried on until I was interrupted by a knock on the door. One of the maids was sent to get me for dinner. I declined knowing that I did not have appetite but she informed me that it was an order from Susan and so I reluctantly got myself into the dinning room.

And so here I am, my ears begging for a break from Tiffany’s voice. She has been asking Alex to pass her things ever since I got here although they were very close to each other and I, opposite them.

I continued picking at my food, downing at the background voices as I got lost in my own head. Maybe Alex would never learn to love me because I’m not his type of just because I’m me. I’m yet to know why. I’m yet to know why he hates me so much.

From now henceforth, I would try to kill my feelings for Alex. It wouldn’t be easy but I know it’ll be worth it at the end. That way whatever he does wouldn’t affect me. I’d be less hurt and we can just try to be civil for the marriage and that would be it.

“Lily!!!”. The sound of my name being called loudly brought me back to the sound of the clattering of plates and cutleries. The whole table had their eyes on me, even the maids as Alex looked at me as though he would stab a fork in my eye any second.

I sat upright and matching his glare. I wasn’t going to be that person anymore. I wasn’t going to let him walk all over me again. I’m pretty sure he treats me like this just because he’s aware of my feelings for him and so he’s just taking advantage of me.

“I’m glad that you finally decided to join us.” He said eying me.

“Eat your food”. He jutted his fork towards my plate with his eyebrows raised.

Can’t he just see just leave me alone. What’s it to him anyway.

“I’m not hungry”. I responded bitterly as I finally dropped my fork, folding my arms. He looked quite shocked at my tone before quickly composing himself.

“I don’t care . Eat your food Lily. You don’t have to be so stubborn all the damn time.” He looked really mad, his Grey eyes turning a darker shade. I wonder why he was trying to make an issue now that there wasn’t one.

“Exactly, you don’t care so drop it Alex”. I spat back. By now everyone had stopped eating and watched our little argument with so much curiosity.

“Lily don’t you dare defy me. Im going to tell you this for the last time. Eat your damn food!!!”. His deep voice boomed in the dinning room sending shivers down my spine but I wasn’t about to give in now. I had to fight it to the end.

“I’m done here”. I stood up straightening the invisible wrinkles on the dress I had one, my chair making a loud screeching sound as I began walking out of the dinning room.Contentt bel0ngs to N0ve/lDrâ/ma.O(r)g!

“Get back here and Sit your ass down”. He said with so much fury, his jaws clenched and the corners of this eyes twitching.

“You’d have to drag my ass over there before that happens “. I halted my movement as I replied with a smirk on my face, my eyes challenging him.

I watched as his took long strides towards me and before I could fathom what he intended to do, I was pushed roughly to the wall causing the restriction of my airflow.

My smirk was wiped off my face as Alex drew nearer to me, his right hand on my neck, choking me but not enough to kill me and sickly enough I was enjoying every second of it.

“You dirty girl, tsk tsk tsk. You love it when I choke you”. Alex said with a sly smile and surprise written all over his face and his other hand gripping my waist that tightly.

Please I am also surprised

I felt tingles all over my body and my heart was hammering against my chest. My earlier plans of getting over Alex were slowing fading me, leaving me to melt into his hands not until the next few words of Alex snapped me back to reality.

“You’ll always be mine”. Hearing these words, I was brought back to the countless times Chase had touched me and repeatedly said this me. I pushed him away with all my strength as the room felt to tight. I needed space to breathe.

“Are you okay”. He asked worriedly, noticing my discomfort.

“I need air”. I choked out.

He made a move to come closer to me but flinched and backed away from him. “Please don’t touch me”. I cried out.

He looked hurt for a second but all I needed now was space as everything reminded me of Chase. I cried and held my chest tightly trying to free my self of the blockage I felt there. Susan and the rest of table simply watched me as though i was the star actress in a movie.

Alex seemed to get the hint and finally stood afar off. I struggled alone until I got into the room, choking on air before I finally succumbed to the darkness that welcomed me wholeheartedly.