Slaved To The Alpha

“What are you saying? We only met yesterday? Or was it the other day? No matter, we cannot be together because we have different social standings, Krisna, and that’s not all. I don’t know if you know this already but, I’m not looking for anyone at the moment, and that’s because I’m still too busy running my own life and taking care of my mother. I have so many responsibilities at the moment, I’m being pressured to get married, get a woman, blah blah. But I don’t want any of those right now. I just want to focus on myself, and no one else.” I said in an enthusiastic tone of voice as I explained that what she was saying was impossible at the moment.

I just can’t catch feelings instantly. From my experience, they develop over time. It isn’t something that happens instantaneously. If that does happen, then I know that Either fell in love with their looks or just the idea of being with them. But that’s not me. That will never be me.

“If you don’t believe in any of that, fate, me, and the fact that we are the ones meant for each other, then why did you even approach me?” She said in a sad tone of voice as she started to tear up, I don’t want to make her cry, but I also don’t want to lie to her. I want her to know the truth, which is the fact that I do not care about what fate says about us.

But I didn’t approach her; she was the one who came to me. I was just focusing on my own business when suddenly she appeared out of nowhere, which made me go into hiding to avoid her. She then started calling me out, but I don’t think she knew that I was the one she was chasing.

“I never approached you, Krisna, I was just walking on my own when I suddenly heard you were coming, so I hid, and then you started chasing me since you saw me, I was actually trying to avoid you, but you just kept on following me,” I said in a serious tone of voice, I shouldn’t have said that though, even if it was the truth, being avoided by someone is actually quite hurtful.

Her tears started to flow more from her eyes. It wasn’t my intention to make another girl cry, but I really had no choice this time because she needed to know what I thought, not just what she thought.

She then stood up from the tree branch and was just looking at the night sky, and she was quite beautiful under the moonlight, she is way different than the girls I’ve been with before, if only I weren’t like this, if only I were trying to find someone with commitment, then maybe, just maybe. I could’ve taken Krisna’s offer since it was the ideal chance to find a partner. She said we are fated by love, which means no matter what I do, we’ll always come back to each other, that is if fate was real. Which it clearly isn’t. This isn’t some fairytale where we get out happy endings. This is the real world. She should know that by now.

“You know Grant, and I used to not believe in those types of things again, you know, the fairytales, the happy endings, fate? Yeah, I used to be like you, a non-believer, then I saw everything with my own two eyes, which made me rethink what to believe and what to brush off. So this is one of the things that you should believe.” She said in an enthusiastic voice as she looked at me under the moonlight. I could see her tearing up while she smiled at me.

“I’m sorry, Krisna, but I don’t think that you can change my mind, just go get some rest.’ As I already had enough of this conversation, I just said that I heard it from my mother, Greco, and now from Krisna. Everyone just keeps on pushing what they believe into me, that’s their opinion, and they should just keep it to themselves.

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She just left the moment I said those words, she jumped from the tree branch and just ran as fast as she could. I could hear her sobbing as she tried to hold back her tears so that I couldn’t see them.

I didn’t chase after her since I thought it was for the best. If I did chase after her, she might really think that I have feelings for her, that I actually believe that we are fated by love. I don’t think any of that because I don’t believe in it. I just wish that all of them would stop shoving their opinions straight into my throat every time I have a nice casual conversation with someone, maybe that’s why I felt so suffocated inside earlier. Every time I talked to one of the girls there, they would always bring up that stupid topic along with this stupid Annual Pack Gathering!

But out here? Underneath the moon with the cold breeze blowing on my face? I just feel so free, like I don’t have to live to anyone else’s expectations, not that I have to anyway, it just feels so good being alone, with no one else to tell you what to do. Nice job Grant, you might become a monk in the future if this is what your idea of relaxation is like.