A terrible fortnight
Lilly.
Two weeks had passed since I decided to get back with Kyle. To say the truth, I had not really enjoyed a moment with him during that time. He was obsessive and a little too controlling for my taste. Sometimes when I was alone, I had to always look over my shoulder to make sure he was not following me. He was like a shadow that followed me everywhere. Even when we were not physically together, I could feel the shadow. He never slapped me or assaulted me in any way, but the looks he gave me were enough to make me cower.
Eventually, I got tired of the relationship. It was like a prison. A relationship was supposed to be safe and sweet. The person you dated was supposed to be someone you felt comfortable and safe with. Two days after accepting to get back with him, I regretted it. I decided to give it some time, hoping things would change. Unfortunately, things only became worse.
Kyle tried to be nice to me, but the problem was that he was fighting against his mean personality. Somehow, it always managed to come out however much he tried to hide. When he asked me to go to his place and I refused, he lost it. I turned down the offer because of safety concerns but I didn’t tell him that. I just told him I was more comfortable at my place. He accused me of all kinds of things but I remained silent. I had made up my mind and was not about to go and sleep over there. The only time I would go was if he organised a party or something that involved many people.
“There’s something you’re not telling me,” he said. “What is the real reason you won’t go to my place?”
I glanced at the door then back at him. Should I say it, or should I not? I asked myself inwardly.
“Can we just drop this?” I said. “I don’t have any problem with you coming over here so there’s no need.”
Kyle walked to where I was and raised his hand. He nearly slapped me but pulled it back. “Lilly, I’m not an idiot and I don’t appreciate you treating me like one. What is the real reason behind all of this?”
“Okay, I’m scared.” I confessed.
“Scared of what?” his brows furrowed as he looked directly into my eyes.
“You,” I said.
Kyle took two steps back. “What? I thought we had put all that shit behind us. You still think I assaulted and harassed people, right. I can’t believe you, Lilith Hellman. Who do you think you are, walking around like some saint, judging everyone else as if you’re perfect? Wow, let the whole world here. Lilith Hellman has never done anything wrong and she has never been accused of anything she didn’t do.”
I sighed. “I don’t mean it like that. Just now you almost slapped me. You have been very passive aggressive lately. If I’m scared of anything, it is because your actions have driven me to anything. You have shown me that I should fear you. Stop acting like a victim. It does not suit you, Kyle Munther.”
“You’re one hell of bitch, Lilith Hellman. You surprise me each passing day, but I’ll always forgive your little sins because I love so damn much.”
“Then stop loving me. If this is love, I don’t want it.”
“You want me to hate you?” he said and started laughing maniacally, causing me to walk closer to the door where I could easily run if he lost it. “Do you know what would happen to you if I did that? Let me tell you one thing. You are mine, and I will not let anyone have you.”
“You’re scaring me, Kyle.”
“Good, because you need to be scared. You need to be very scared of disappointing me. Don’t try it because it won’t end well for you.”
I went to the bedroom door and opened it, then stepped into the living room. I heard Kyle following me so I ran to the front door, opened it and went outside. i stood by the door. A middle aged couple from the floor above mine where talking at the landing which made me feel safer.
“What is going on with you?” Kyle asked me.
“You need to leave, Kyle. We can’t go on like this anymore. This is over.”
Kyle glanced at the couple. The woman stared hard at him and he turned back to me. I guess she could sense that something was wrong.
“What the hell is wrong with you? Today you want me, tomorrow you don’t. Why do you keep bouncing me around like this?”
“I’m sorry that I make bad decisions sometimes.”
“You can’t break up with me right now.”
“I’m very sorry. Please leave right now.”
Kyle glanced at the couple again. He went back inside and returned with his backpack.Contentt bel0ngs to N0ve/lDrâ/ma.O(r)g!
“Is this really what you want? Once I leave, I won’t return.”
I nodded. “Yes, this is what I want.”
“Okay, Lilith Hellman. I know that we’ll see each other again. You and I have a connection that will never break whether you like it or not. We shall always be connected.”
I didn’t say anything to that. This time I was sure that I did not need him in my life anymore. I had been sure for over two weeks.
When Kyle was gone, the woman turned to me.
“Are you okay, dear?”
I nodded. “Yes, I’m fine. Thank you for asking.”
“He didn’t seem to like very much when you told him to leave.”
“He scares me,” I confessed. “I couldn’t spend one more minute with him.”
“You did the right thing. I’m proud of you.”
“Thanks,” I said. “And enjoy your evening.”
“You too, dear. By the way, in case he returns or you need some help, come to our apartment. Number 64. I’m Maria and this is my fiancé Jose.”
“Will do. Thank you very much.”