Chapter 61
“Are you still missing him?” He asks again, anger resounding in his voice. She should’ve hated him so much by now, she shouldn’t be thinking of him and even if she is, she is supposed to think of killing him. The thoughts of her still missing him, pisses him off and he wish to strangle him to death.
Everything he did was for her sake, because he so much want to be with her, but why is it that after everything, she still ended up having feelings for that bastard instead of hating him?
“It’s hard to…”
“What is difficult, Harley? Have you forgotten what he did to you? It was me all along! I was there for you all these years, I picked and rescued you from the fire, I spent everything on me just to see that you get to where you are today. What did he ever do to you? He hurt you, he killed your family and made you become another person. He made you go through so much pain, is it until he kills you that you’ll know that he’s a monster?” Samir yells angrily. He has been trying to control his anger for so long, he has been trying to tame his beast and not let it take over him for so long, but he’s already losing it now he’s not sure if he can take this anymore.
“I know, but…”
“But you love him! That’s the problem. I have been here with you all those years, why does it have to be him? Why did you never look at me? I’m the one you supposed to be in love with, why did you choose him?” He asks in between gritted teeth. His eyes conveys nothing, but so much anger and bitterness.
“I want to hate him… I want to make him pay for all the pain, but it’s just not working. No matter how much I try to, nothing is working and it’s driving me crazy…” She breaks down in tears, hugging the picture to herself.
“It’s the baby… Get rid of him…” He stares coldly into space as he say those words with no remorse in his voice. Slowly, she raises her gaze with her eyes widens in shock. She opens her mouth to talk, but her lips only trembles and closes by themselves. She wasn’t expecting him to say something like that. The person that wronged her is Jayden, why she be so heartless to take the life of her own child. She went through so much pain before she could bring him to this world, she fought between life and death and almost lost her life, trying to bring him to life, and hurting him is the last thing on her mind. Her son have given her so much happiness, with him around her, she feels like Jayden is with her, her son have raised her hope so high, why would she think of doing anything to harm him, no matter what his dad had done to her?
“What?” She fine exclaims in shock, and he turns his gaze to him.
“Yes. Can’t you get it? For as long as the baby lives, he will keep reminding you of the pain you went through. He will keep reminding you that there’s someone out there that have hurt you so deeply and turned you into this. He will keep reminding of…”
“He is my son, Samir! How can you ask me to kill my own son? Is that even a suggestion? Do you know the pain I went through, bringing him into this world? Do you know how long I have been waiting and longing for the day that I would finally see him? Yes, Jayden have hurt me, he did all the bad things that shouldn’t have been done. And I know that I have been a fool to have loved him, I am still a big fool to have still been in love with him even after everything he had done to me, I shouldn’t pity him, but I can’t help it…”
“You’re just going to let everything slide? Are you out of your mind?” He yells again, running his fingers through his hair. Yes, he’s just trying to control himself, but it’s getting out of hand and he’s losing it already.
“I don’t know…” She runs her fingers through her hair, as she sinks into her bed and bury her face in her palms. Can’t someone just tap her and tell her to wake up from this dream? Can’t someone just tell her that she has been hallucinating all along? She wish everything can suddenly turn into dreams of years, but it hurts that it can never be. This is reality and she has to wake up to it.This content © Nôv/elDr(a)m/a.Org.
“I didn’t save you that day to be weak, Harley! I didn’t save you from the fire that day to turn out like this. The only reason I saved you that day, is because of vengeance! I wanted you to be strong and avenge the death of your family. And no matter what happens, I won’t let you back out. I won’t let you become a slave to your emotions, Harley. You must do the right thing,” he finally says and with that, he ambles out of her room, slamming the door behind him.
She sighs deeply, running her fingers through her hair. Now she has to make a decision, a drastic one that is between life and death, she had to choose between avenging her family and forgiving Jayden, but now she’s only left with one option. And that is revenge. Samir won’t let this slide, no matter how much she tries to, he will push her to the edge until she can’t take it anymore and do what he wants, he won’t stop reminding her of the pain and triggering her hatred, he won’t stop not until he gets what he wants, which is the death of Jayden. That’s the only thing that he wants…