My Hot Alpha

I woke around eleven.

My body was still on fire. I couldn't stop thinking about him. His hands all over me, his lips against my neck. I wanted to scream at him. He did this to me, he was making me feel like this and giving me nothing. I wanted to cry.

I was sexually frustrated and pissed off at the same time. How did he think doing that to me was fair? He told me with everyday that passes the bond will become stronger. How long was I going to feel like this? I didn't know how much more I could take. I had never felt like this with anyone. I've only ever had one s****l partner, one boyfriend and yet I was ready to strip naked and let him have his way with me. I wanted that, I still do.

Grabbing my pillow I screamed into it. What was happening to me? What was he doing to me? Pushing the covers off I got out of bed checking my phone. Alanna had messaged me a few hours ago.

'Hey, are you okay? Want to come over? Or I can come to you. I have lots of snacks and I have booze if you fancy it? Schools are shut until this is over. Ax'

I didn't know if I could handle the company right now but it did beat being on my own. I didn't need for Jake to come back here. He couldn't come back here when I was like this. I didn't even know what was happening to me.

'I'm good! Maybe come over in a little while. I'm not long up and it's way to early to drink lol but I could use the company :)'

After showering and changing into fresh clothes I was sat at my kitchen island trying to think of something other than s*x and Jake or s*x with Jake.

My gran kept to her word and was sending me messages every few hours. I was glad she wasn't here, she would know straight away that something was wrong.

I had no way to burn my energy. I would usually run to get all my frustration out but I couldn't go outside in that weather. Opening the fridge door my stomach dropped. I ruined the chicken last night and all I could see were some eggs and turkey. What I would do for a muffin and a cappuccino right about now. Taking the last two egg out the holder I placed them on the island and shut the door. Checking to see if we had bread I cursed when I heard it.

Looking at the mess on the floor I cried out in frustration. Was anything else going to go wrong today? I didn't know why I was getting upset over broken eggs.

"This was his fault". I groaned wiping at my eyes. I couldn't function because of him. Lifting my phone I opened up a new message.

Hey, I don't really have any food here. Is there any chance you could bring me something over?! Sorry to ask but I'm starving lol x'

I knew Alanna would pull through she always did. I also had no idea why it was okay for them to be out in that and not me.

Every little thing was getting to me. I couldn't leave my house, I couldn't drive because of my hand. I couldn't have s*x because he wouldn't allow it.

"I wasn't ready". Huffing I balled my hand into a fist. How could he say I wasn't ready, he didn't know me. My frustration was turning to anger. I was angry at him, I was angry at the way he just left. I wanted him to touch me, god I wanted to touch him. But no the big bad wolf says I'm not ready.

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I was angry, frustrated and tired. I needed coffee and something in my belly. Going about the kitchen I made myself a coffee.

I was sat to wrapped up in my own thoughts that I didn't hear her come in.

"I brought some goodies". She grinned placing the bag on the counter. "You okay?". She asked.

No I wasn't okay and you're brothers to blame. That's what I wanted to say but I didn't want to get into it with her.

"I'm okay and thank you for this".

"My moms been cooking since sunrise". She sighed rolling her eyes. "Looking after everyone like always". Yeah that sounded like Charlotte. She treated everyone like her own. Taking off her wet coat she hung it on the door. Getting two plates from the cupboard I watched as Alanna fixed the breakfast. "Any idea when the storm will pass?". I asked.

"Take it your gran can't get home?".

"They aren't letting anyone in or out". I sighed.

"You can come stay with me until it's over". She suggested.

I couldn't, I couldn't be near him right now. Not when I couldn't control what I was feeling. Not when he wouldn't touch me.

"The bond". She whispered causing my head to snap up.

"It's driving me insane". I groaned. I felt like a dog in heat. I wanted to be with him, I wanted to feel the closeness. The tingling sensation in the pit of my stomach was still there.

"It's only going to get worse". She added.

That's not what I wanted to hear. "My body is on fire Alanna. I can't stop thinking about him, I'm frustrated. I want s*x". I cried.

She laughed and that only pissed me off more.

"It's not funny". I snapped. I didn't know what to do or how to control it. I wanted to claw my skin off, I needed something to help ease the discomfort.

"No Leah I'm not laughing because you're like this I'm laughing because he's the same".

Good! He was suffering just as much as me.

"I haven't felt like this before. Why is it so intense right now. We've spent time together before and it's never been like this".