My Emotionless Goddess

“Yeah.. if a Man doesn’t feel anything for you, leave alone following you, he won’t even have time to look at you. You are a wise lady, you should take this chance before it’s too late.” Miranda advised.

” But.. he already has a fiancee.” Stacy said in almost a whisper.

” So just because he has a fiance you are giving up? He still had a fiance when he was following you all the way from abroad. The fiance was still there when he was sticking to you every minute. I can’t believe how slow witted you’ve turned to be after falling in love. If your father knows this, he’ll surely disown you after breaking your bones.” Miranda said, aggrieved. Never in a million times did she ever think she’ll be the one giving advice to her friend.

” Okay, I get you.. it doesn’t matter if he’s engaged or not. As long as he’s not married, I still have a chance. Don’t worry, after we settle everything here, I’ll go back and woo him.” Stacy said finally feeling enlightened. She would not give up without trying. If he felt the same, she was sure they would be together.

” Go ahead.. check up on father before getting some rest.. It has been a Long day, and we still have a lot to do tomorrow.” Miranda urged her friend who complied immediately. She was now left alone in the room with a sleeping Justin.

Miranda watched as Justin’s brows furrowed even in his dream. His face contorted as if he was in pain. He was mumbling incoherent words. She moved and sat on the hospital bed and held his cold hand in hers.

” Am here Hun, I’ll never leave you.. I’ll always accompany you so don’t be afraid, okay?”

Her sweet melodious voice reached Justin’s subconscious and he relaxed. Looking at his handsome face, her heart ached for him. His life has been more like a soap opera. He never experienced real happiness in his life. Miranda swore that she’ll be the source of his happiness. She will accompany him in his darkest of days, in his sorrows and instability. She will be his guardian angel in this life, never leaving him alone.

The following day, Justin opened his eyes and saw a nurse changing his IV drip. He tried to lift his hand and that’s when he felt the tight grip enveloping his hand. He looked down and was met by an angelic face sleeping peacefully with her head on the edge of the bed.

Miranda, who was a light sleeper, already noticed the presence of the nurse in the room but she felt so exhausted from lifting her head so she continued lying there. A minute later, she felt a movement from Justin. He was awake. She wanted to lift her face and look at him but was worried that he would ignore her like yesterday.

Justin wanted to wake up and go to the bathroom but when he saw Miranda sleeping peacefully, he couldn’t bear to wake her up so he stilled in. Time passed by and Miranda was getting impatient waiting for Justin’s next action after waking up. The anxiety was torturing her nerves. Not able to hold it any longer, she raised her head and looked at the man.

Justin was spacing out. His brain finally registered what happened yesterday. They were in the middle of a war and were trying to escape. Then they were surrounded by rebels and a man was hellbent on killing him. Then.. then Nikolai took the bullet for him and revealed that they were blood brothers but he .. he left him.

He couldn’t control himself from silently sobbing but dared not make noise in fear of waking up Miranda. That was the scene that met Miranda when she looked up. Her fiance was crying again but this time silently. Her heart clenched in pain seeing him this way. she wished there was a way she could share his pain. Ofcourse, the death of Nikolai hurt her, he was her ally and treated her better. He was useful in the war against the rebels.

He had helped her alot along the way, who would have thought he was doing this for his brother’s sake. She remembered asking him why he was helping her and he said he was not helping her, he was helping himself.. so that was what he meant, he was protecting someone dear to them both by collaborating with her.

Thinking about how amiable he was with her even after being known as the most rude and unfeeling Prince, he must have done that because she was not the princess, but his brother’s woman. Then, Why did he take all that time to reveal himself to Justin? She wondered but no One would help her answer that.

Miranda watched Justin for a while before waking and engulfing him in a tight hug. She wished to share his pain but didn’t know how to, so hugging him was the only thing she could do to comfort him.

Justin smelled the familiar scent engulfing him and his heart warmed up. Yes, she was here with him. She did not Leave him even after seeing him broken. His elder brother asked him to be happy and she was his happiness. He must be strong for her. Justin lifted his free hand and hugged her back.

Miranda was surprised by the gesture but More importantly, she was happy. He didn’t loathe her for causing the death of his brother. She might have not killed him directly but in One way or the other, she was the main cause of it all. If she didn’t have to be raised away from the Palace, Justin wouldn’t have gotten entangled with the royal family, so Nikolai would not have entered the Palace to keep watch on his brother. If that didn’t happen, then there’s no way Nikolai would die protecting Justin. She loved him, but at the end of the day, she was the main cause of his misery and pain.Please check at N/ôvel(D)rama.Org.

” Am sorry… Am so sorry Justin..” Miranda apologised and before she knew it, a dam of tears broke and she started crying, trembling. Justin was taken aback! He couldn’t understand Why his woman was crying so much. She seemed like a child who had been bullied. Anyway, the reason didn’t matter at this point, she would tell him after she recovered. What was important now was helping her stop crying.

” Sssh Hun!” He said, rubbing her back. ” Don’t cry Please, it’s all my fault, stop crying.” He thought she was crying because she saw him crying earlier.

” Am sorry Justin.. and sorry for causing you pain.. If it wasn’t for me, Maybe… Maybe..” her words were choked by her sobs. Justin was confused at this point. He didn’t understand what rubbish she was talking about. What did she mean by causing him pain?

” What are you saying, Hun. You did nothing wrong. Am sorry for making you worry.” Justin tried pacifying her.

” No Hun.. I am a sinner.. I am the main reason you lost your brother.. if it wasn’t for me…” She didn’t get to finish her words because Justin pushed her away, his expression l not so good making her gulp” listen to me and listen very carefully.. My brother’s death has nothing to do with you. don’t take blame for things you have no control over. Maybe that was his purpose in life, since he fulfilled it with dignity, allow him to rest in peace.” His voice turned softer as he continued talking.

” Ever since we were Young, he always protected me, he would take the blame and punishment for me. He took care of me after the death of our parents. He has always been the elder brother who would sacrifice anything for me. At the end of it all, he even sacrificed his Life for me. I feel indebted to him. ” Justin said, his voice melancholic.