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Katrina couldn’t believe what was happening, Lucas was kissing her, kissing her in public, this had to be a dream, the pressure of his mouth on hers made it impossible for her to think straight, he was indeed a good kisser, his mouth explored hers in a way no one else has ever done, she couldn’t remember the last time she kissed someone, she sighed in pleasure, kissing him back, she never thought this day will come that he will kiss her. Then it dawn on her, this wasn’t the kiss she hoped it will be, this was just for a show, with that thought she suddenly wanted the kiss to end, tapped on his shoulders to let her go and he did maybe because he felt her withdrawal.

“I am sorry Kat,”

The sorry, yeah, that’s what she didn’t want to hear, ‘sorry’ but she just nodded and smiled at him, this was what she agreed to do, she just have to keep that at the back of her mind.

“If you want we can call it a day here,”

“No, I am okay,” she said smiling at him and gently touching his chin.

“You sure?”

“Yes,”

“Okay,”

The music increased just then and everyone moved towards the dance floor with their various partners, all real partners, she sighted with jealousy but made sure it didn’t show in her expression, she was good at faking her emotions so this should be easy.

“Shall we dance my lady?”

He requested.

“Sure,” she responded taking the hand he offered and following him to the dance floor, he held on to her waist as they danced slowly to the music.

“You are so pretty,” he whispered against her ears sending a shock of excitement into her body.

“I know,” she whispered back trying to play along while she melted inside.

“I don’t know what’s wrong with me, it… I don’t know, maybe I have had too much to drink but I wanna kiss you again,”

He whispered close to her ears before looking at her, she was shocked at the look in his eyes,

“Don’t,” she replied but it was already too late, his lips were on hers again and she found herself melting into his touch and kissing him back, the kiss soon became heated and she had to pull back to stop him.

“I am…” She couldn’t take another sorry from him so she leaned towards him and pecked his lip when she saw that he wanted to apologize again. She smiled at him and he smiled back as the beat of the song turned into a faster one, they both danced along smiling and laughing with one another. by the time the party was over they were both pretty exhausted that when they got back to their room, they just took a shower and went to bed, at least he went to sleep, she couldn’t sleep, she thought about the first kiss, and the second, the first was okay because it was just for the part they were playing but the second, no one was watching at least she knew that everyone was so invested in dancing that no one would have noticed, then why did he kiss her, she touched her lips, she could still feel them swollen, she could still remember the taste of him, she was in trouble, she thought.

“Are you not going to sleep? We have a lot to do tomorrow, come on, get some sleep,”

He said to her in a sleepy voice and pulled her close to him, held her in his arms while patting her back gently, how did he want her to sleep with his breath against her face, with his body on her. He went fastback to sleep.

She couldn’t sleep though, not with his arms around her, she couldn’t fall asleep, she carefully removed his arms from her and got off the bed, quietly picked up her phone and left the room, she needed to speak with Jordan, they have not spoken since she left and she felt bad for not calling him, she walked to reception and sat down in a quiet area, where she could talk with Jord without drawing attention to herself, even though it was late, people were still around.

As she opened her phone, she saw a text from the same number that had texted her this morning, she wanted to delete it without reading but opted not to since she promised Lucas, she would show him anytime she got a text from the number again, she closed her message box and dialed Jordan’s number hoping he would pick up because it was so late at night, and he might already be sleeping, and he did pick up, he didn’t sound a bit like someone who had been sleeping.

“Bitch, I thought you forgot about me?”

“Hey, Jord, sorry, I have been really busy, since I got here,”

“It’s okay, I am not offended, I am used to you ghosting me whenever you are with your boss,”

He replied, but Katrina could hear his annoyance in his words.

“I am sorry Jord, promise I will make it up to you,”

“You better,”

“I will, where are you that you picked up so quick, I thought you would be sleeping already and just tried my luck,”

“Nah, I ain’t sleeping yet, I ain’t even at home, I am at Max’s house.”

“What? Jord? I thought it wasn’t serious.”

She asked baffled at he moved on from Kelvin so fast, she wished she was just a little like him, then things wouldn’t have been so hard.

“It’s not serious girl, I am just testing the waters,”

“Hmm, okay,”

“Yeah, so what’s up with you?”

“Nothing much,”

“Heeey, that doesn’t sound like nothing though, you called because you have something to say right? Now say it,”

“No, Jordan I called to say hi,”Text property © Nôvel(D)ra/ma.Org.

“Kat, I know you better than anyone else, for you to call me by this time means you have something to talk about so spill girl,”

“Fine, sometimes I hate that you know me so well,”

“As if, it goes both ways remember?”

“Yeah, I know, so the thing is,”

Kat said and paused, she didn’t know how to put it to him.

“The thing is?” He asked impatiently.

“Don’t worry just forget about it,”

“No, you don’t bitch, now start talking, what happened?”

“Lucas and I kissed,”

At her words, he screamed so loud that she had to remove her phone from her ear to avoid damages.

“Oh my God girl, I wanna hear the full gist, how was it? What kind of kiss is it?”

“Jordan!!!”

“Okay, I am quiet, start talking,”

“The first time…”

“Wait more than once?” He screamed again interrupting her.

“Jordan!”

“Sorry continue,”

“If you interrupt me again I am hanging up, and you can go back on your date or whatever it is,”

“Fine, I am not saying anything again just listening,”

“Good, so the first time, it was for show, I am not thinking much about that, but the second is where I am having an issue, he said he wanted to kiss me, and he did, I don’t know what to do with that,” she paused wanting his input but he didn’t say a word.

“Jordan?”

“What you said not to say a word,”

“Come on Jord, I am serious here.”

“What’s there to fret about Kat? I already told you before you left, now seems like the dude wanna do some shit with you too, so it’s no longer one-sided, you don’t have to seduce him now, you just have to go with the flow,”

“That’s the point Jord, you know Lucas, I don’t want a fling but I know that’s all he can give, I don’t think that will be enough for me,”

She replied voicing out her fears, she was scared of getting into anything with Lucas and getting carried away which may lead to heartbreak because she already knew Lucas doesn’t do commitments.

“Katrina, heartbreaks don’t kill, and if you already know what you are in for, it won’t hurt all that much, take me for example, I already moved on, trust me you will get over it, but what you won’t ever get over is the fact that you never gave it a chance because of your fears, I don’t know about you, but I can’t live with regretting not doing something, I rather bear the pain and get over it knowing I did something, than regret not doing it at all, but then again at the end of the day, you always have to make your choices no matter what anyone else says. If you understand me,”

“Yes, I understand Jord, thanks a lot, and I am sorry for keeping you away from your date,”

“Nah, don’t be sorry, girl, Max understand and you are more important,”

“Thanks again Jord, I will call again,”

“You better do, bye I love you,”

“I love you more,”

She said and ended the call, she sat there for a little longer thinking about what her choice would be, she has had this one side feeling for so long, what will it hurt to just indulge with the man, like Jordan said, whatever outcome comes she just have to live with it, her mind made up, she went back into their shared room, got on the bed and slept off.