MORE THAN A SECRETARY

Katrina was too shocked to say a word or even clap, everyone was clapping, but her mind seemed to be locked in the past, few minutes ago, Lucas, he said, could it be? Or was she overthinking it, but his words, the way he looked at her while he said them, she replayed it over and over again,

“Kat? Can we talk?”

She looked up in shock as he stood in front of her, she hadn’t known when he left the podium but he was standing in front of her, he looked fresh and handsome as always, his familiar swell hit her nostrils, oh how much she missed that swell, how much she missed him.

“Kat?”

“Right now, the ceremony is just starting,”

“Go with him Katrina, my dad is giving a speech so, it’s nothing much,”

Leah said patting her, she looked at the podium and Lucas’s parents were there, she didn’t even know.

“Shall we?”

He asked stretching his hand, she took it and they both walked out of the auditorium, her heart was beating so fast, what did he want to talk to her about? Could it be what she thinks it will be? Or was she overreading it again? She didn’t want to be disappointed, plus she still had to tell him about the baby, she had thought she will tell him after, that she would like to speak to him and fix a date when they can meet, but right, she didn’t know, would she just tell him now and leave the party?

Her thoughts were cut off when he opened the door to one of the rooms and they both entered, he let go of her hand.

“Kat,”

He whispered.

“Huh? Congratulations,”

She said, lacking any other thing to say.

“How have you been Kat?”

“Fine, as you can see,”

“Kat,”

“I think we should head back since we don’t have anything to say to each other, the party has barely started and I don’t want to seem rude which is why I followed you, congratulations on the opening of your hotel,”

Katrina blurted out, she wasn’t sure what pushed her to say those words but they were out before she could stop herself and there was no way of getting them back, she knew she had to tell him but not at the party and definitely not at the beginning of the party, okay she was confused and it was showing.

“I have something to say to you though, I have a lot to say,”

“Well, you aren’t saying anything,”

“I want to but I don’t even know where to start from,”

“Lucas? Really? Lucas Evans doesn’t know where to start from that doesn’t seem like the Lucas I know,”

“You can’t blame me, can you? I become a different person with you, even I don’t get myself when it involves you,”

“I don’t even know what you are talking about Lucas, can you go straight to the point? I don’t fancy standing in the middle of a bedroom,”

“You can sit if you want,”

“Can I leave too?”

She asked pointing at the door, whatever possessed her was doing the most and she hope she won’t regret it later.

“You can’t,”

“Ddaeng! I will just sit then,”

She replied taking her seat.

“Are you seeing someone Kat?”

“Huh, I don’t think that’s your business Lucas, we aren’t close, you can’t ask me questions about my private life,”

“Okay, you aren’t seeing anyone, thank God,”

“What? I never said I wasn’t,”

“You don’t have to, I know already,”

He answered smiling, she wondered what was amusing that was making him smile, he left a room full of guests and is here asking her if she was in a relationship, maybe he was high.

“Okay, I think I am done here,”

She said getting up and adjusting her dress.

“I am out,”

She added.

“I am not done yet,”

He said.

“Well, I am, we don’t have anything to say to each other,”

“I do,”

“Okay, last chance, what do you want from me, Lucas?”

She asked sitting back down.

“You,”

He whispered, what was the use of sitting in the first place because she was up again, she must have heard him wrong.

“Me?”

She asked.

“Yes, Kat, you,”

“Wow, I have no words, Lucas, I can’t believe you are doing this right now, have some shame, Lucas,”

She replied angrily, angry at herself, angry at him, what had she been expecting?

“Why will I be ashamed of wanting you, Katrina?”

“I am just going to leave now, it’s clear you are out of your mind,”

“Wait, Katrina,”

“Wait for what Lucas?”

“I think I am going about this the wrong way, you are not getting what I mean,”

“Oh but I get you, Lucas, you need a quick lay and you thought, well here is the good ol’ Katrina, she can’t resist me, well guess what? I can and I am out of here,”

She fired at him, going for the door, what the fuck did he take her for? He thought she was easy and cheap.

“Oh God, that’s not what I meant Katrina, can you hear me out please?”

“What the fuck did you mean then?”

Katrina yelled.

“I love you!!”

He yelled back.

“What?”

“I love you, Katrina, that’s what I have been trying to say, I want you with me, not because I need a quick lay but because I love you,”

He answered, Katrina couldn’t believe what she was hearing, he was joking, he had to be playing a game because there was no way Lucas will love her, he didn’t do love, he told her so.

“Is that a new strategy Lucas?”

“No, it’s not, I love you, Katrina, I know I messed up and it took me quite a while to come to terms with how I feel about you but it’s true, I love you and want you back in my life,”

He said. She couldn’t believe he was saying those words, words she thought she can only hear from him in her dreams but here he was telling her those yet her heart didn’t feel the excitement she thought it will feel, she just couldn’t place how she took his declaration of love, he had all these past months to look for her and tell her how he felt but he waited till now, what if she hasn’t come to the party? What if she had relocated? Will he have come to terms with his feelings, it didn’t just feel right with her.

“I have got to go, I came here to congratulate you and I have done that,”

She said turning to exit the room but he held her back.

“Kat, please, believe me, I love you, I am sorry I didn’t realize on time please, give me another chance, please? I promise I will make it right,”

“There is nothing to make right Lucas, this sudden declaration of love is not it, please let me go, I can’t stay here, where were you all those months, why now? I am just starting to get over you please don’t take me back, okay? You don’t love me, you are just saying it now, I don’t even know why you are doing this but please don’t,”

She said taking her hand away from his, but he held her again.

“I can’t Kat,”

“Lucas!!”

“Please Kat, I know you love me too,”

“You don’t know anything because I don’t love you anymore so you can’t fool me, whatever I felt for you ended,”

She lied, she knew her lies were so weak but she had to, he was using those words against her and she will be a fool to fall for them.

“I love you, Katrina, I want to be with you, even if you don’t love me right now, I can wait, you loved me before and you can love me again,”

“I don’t think so Lucas,”

“Katrina, look at me, please? Can you look at me?”

“Why? Lucas? Just why?”

“Kat”

“Can’t you just leave me alone? I was doing fine Lucas, don’t do this to me now, I don’t deserve this please,”

She begged, she was weak again and her lovesick heart was giving in to those words, he was winning again.

“Katrina,”

He whispered coming closer to her and lifting her face to look at him, she did, but what she saw in those eyes made her turn away, she couldn’t believe they were true, no, eyes could lie.

“Katrina, don’t turn away from me, please, I know I don’t deserve another chance but I am willing to do everything to win you back, just don’t shut me out, please, give me the chance to prove to you that I love you, I was a fool to think I didn’t,”

“Can we talk about this after the party? Your guests might be waiting for you,”

She said, she needed time to come to terms with what he was saying as she was still in shock, she didn’t want to make any mistakes, plus she still had to tell him about the baby.

“If you promise not to run away after the party,”

“I won’t, I promise,”

She replied.

“Okay, we will talk after the ceremony ends, you can wait here in this room, and we will talk,”

“Okay,”

“Good,”

He said and dropped an unexpected kiss on her forehead, she hadn’t expected it and grasped it when he did.

“I love you and I am going to do everything to get you back, Katrina,”Original from NôvelDrama.Org.

He added, she turned and left him there, going back downstairs to the auditorium, she avoided the gaze of everyone, hoping that Lucas’s sisters won’t ask her any questions and thankfully they didn’t, the party went by in a blur, and soon everyone was leaving, she looked for Jordan but couldn’t find him, she was about to call him when she got a text from him saying he already left, she texted him back that she was going to talk to Lucas before she leaves and he responded wishing her good luck, she still wanted to call him and tell him what Lucas said but she knew Jordan will tell her to make the right choices, right now she didn’t even know what that was, will it be fine to accept him or should she go back to being on her own?

To distract herself she exchanged pleasantries with a few people she knew from the office, some said they didn’t know she had quit because she was always up in the office early and never leaves except Lucas and her were going out or she was going to have lunch and they said they thought she just stayed in the office more since Lucas now had more secretaries, apparently Jordan hadn’t said a word neither had the new secretaries.

“Kat, you are spending the night here right?”

Lilac asked coming to stand next to her, she looked tired.

“Yes, I guess,”

She replied she didn’t know yet.

“That’s good and I hope you guys can work it out Katrina, my brother might be stupid sometimes but if he says he wants to fix things then he means it, I can’t tell you what to do but I can at least beg on his behalf, please do give him a chance for us,”

She said, Katrina nodded, she didn’t want to promise anything she wasn’t even sure.

“Goodnight Katrina,”

“Night Lac,”

She responded, and turned to an acquaintance who greeted her.

After only a few minutes of meeting old co-workers she went upstairs into the room she and Lucas had talked in earlier, she was so tired and her feet hurts, so she took off her shoes and lay on the bed waiting for him to come so that they can talk, she concluded she was just going to tell him about the baby as for his declaration of love she still didn’t know what to do with it…