Chapter 58 Space
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“What happens?” Greg asked me furrowing his brows.
I ended the call and answer him.
“I’m sorry, it’s my secretary telling me that Aaron won’t give me my stuff and clothes if I will not get them on my own,” I answered calmly.
It’s a shame for me to rant and get wild on the other’s house. From now on I should learn to be calm.
“Then get it. After eating let’s go back to that place.” He offered help again.
“Thank you. But I guess I will be going alone if it’s okay.” I answered.
I don’t want to bother him. He has his own life and I got mine. I can call a taxi from here.
“Okay, if that’s what you want. But be careful.” He reminded me.
“Yeah, thanks,” I answered.
After eating. I book a taxi to pick me up. I thought that I won’t see him again on this day but I’m wrong! There’s a feeling of anxiety while going back in there.
The scene of him and Andrea is still fresh and keeps on playing in my mind. I don’t want to see that again!
But I saw Andrea going out of the Mansion. Hopefully, she didn’t go back.
Why would I stress myself to sadness? If he is happy with her then be it! Although it hurts like hell I will try to survive this pain. I need to be strong because I’am alone in this world.
The taxi stop right in front of the gate. I’m nervous but I guess we need to talk properly before we separate our ways.
The word separate is tearing my heart apart!
Relax Nalzen and be calm. Everything will be over soon…
This is the only consolation I can give to myself.
The Mansion is so quiet. There are no maids but the door is open wide. Welcoming me to enter for the last time.
I saw Aaron in the living room drinking his wine.
“I will go upstairs to get my stuff,” I said. He didn’t answer. He is staring at the television but I know that he’s not watching.
I will not go up if he will not permit me. I’m waiting for 5 minutes now. And still, he’s quiet.
“Mr. Montgomery. Can I go upstairs to get my stuff?” I asked formally and at last, he looks at me with anger burning in his eyes.
I’am supposed to be angry not him!
“What? Mr. Montgomery. The f*ck! You already forget that I’am your husband?” He asked angrily.
And I don’t have the energy to argue anymore. I’m tired!
“Aaron, Can we talk peacefully? I don’t want to quarrel. I’m exhausted!” I said.
He stands up and holds me.
“Are you sick? Or are you hurt?” He even feels my forehead if I have a fever. I’m trying to control myself and not give in anymore. This will not do! We are not meant to be. We are just contractual lovers that are already expired.
“I’m okay,” I answered coldly.
“Wifey, come back. Don’t leave me okay?” He beg me to stay but I decided to cool myself and for him to think about what he’s gonna do with his Fiancee Andrea.
And the memory is still fresh. Andrea doing that thing with him! I cannot forget even if I close my eyes.
“I’m sorry. Let’s have some space from now on. Or let’s break up.” I answered. I’m trying to maintain an expressionless face.
But deep inside me. I wanted to hug and comfort my hubby! It’s killing me inside…
“Are you insane? I can give you space but I will never break up!” He shouted angrily.
“Then, What will you gonna do with Andrea? You will have the both of us? I can’t forget what you two did! You’re enjoying it don’t you?” I asked with my mouth trembling and my body shaking.
But I don’t want to cry anymore. I can’t handle the pain!
“I’am not! I don’t like it. How can you say that? It’s just a misunderstanding wifey. Please try to understand.” Aaron said with hurt written in his eyes.
What should I understand? I only need to hear three words from him to reassure me. But he didn’t ever speak of it! He didn’t love me…
“It’s enough. Please give me some space Aaron. And let’s talk about it later. But I’am telling you, I decided to file an annulment. This time, I want it for real. I will let you go and hope you will be happy.” I said without looking at him.
I immediately went upstairs and pack my clothes and other stuff.
Our wedding photo caught my attention. I decided to bring it, this is the only remembrance of him. That I will treasure for the rest of my life…
When I went down. Aaron is still drinking. Just wondering where’s Andrea and leaving him in that situation. Or maybe she is coming back and I need to get out from here!
I walked without looking at him and he shouted angrily which makes me stop walking.
“Stop! I’am telling you too. I will never accept your annulment. Where are you living right now?” He stands up and faces me angrily.
What should I say? I can’t tell a lie. I’m very genuine and honest. This is the problem that I need to correct within myself. People will always hurt me if I will continue being like this. But I cannot lie!
“I’am currently renting half of Greg’s condominium,” I answered without looking at him.
I don’t want to see jealousy in his eyes but he didn’t even love me!
He’s just jealous if I will own by others! He only wants to play with me. And it hurts!
What am I doing in here? I need to get out!
“Very good! Now, who is doing some miracles in here?” He asked sarcastically looking down at me.
What the hell? If he only knew that he’s the only one that I love! But what’s the use of that? He didn’t trust me and didn’t even love me! My hand is shaking and couldn’t control myself from slapping his face.
“How Dare you!” I shouted angrily.
I run towards the door but was blocked by Andrea on the way.
“How does it feel? I told you Nalzen. You’re just famous but you are nothing inside Aaron’s heart hahaha.” She said mocking me.
I step forward and pin her into the wall.
“I’m just nothing. But what about you? Why Aaron is crazy with nothing like me? He’s crazy and fantasizes about my body every day and every night. We make love until dawn but did he think of you? No… You are just more than nothing!” I said gritting my teeth.
“F*cking Bitch!” She shouted while her face is so red because of anger.
That’s good of her. From now on, I will never let anyone hurt me! Never…
“Yeah, as f*cking as you are while s*cking Aaron’s d*ck! But I bet he didn’t like it hahaha.” I just said the last part to make her pissed off. And I succeed!
I leave her with a f*uck sign that makes her angrier.
“Here’s for you bitch!” While raising my hand.
“Bullshit! But you are still a loser! Hahaha. Goodbye bitch!” She said waiving her hand.
I just smirk at her. Yeah I’am a loser at least I still have my pride and dignity. The hell I care! They can live happily as much as they want.
As long as Aaron is happy.
It’s alright! I can accept defeat and start a new life again…
But I don’t know if I will survive without him by my side. I will surely miss my hubby! But there’s a little hope in my heart that it’s not the end…
I can see Greg’s car outside.
He’s here! My heart was touched by a newfound friend.
“Greg, What are you doing in here?” I asked smiling but my smile couldn’t reach out to my eyes.
“To pick you up. Hop in!”He answered and open the door beside him.
I sit down quietly while he is driving. Then he suddenly stopped!
“Why?” I asked surprised.
“Come on, This is the best place to shout all your frustrations.” He said and open the door for me.
We are at a secluded place. It’s quiet and eerily peaceful.
“What are we doing in here?” I asked laughing.
“Shout as long as you want. Shout all your pain and frustrations.”Greg said seriously.
I stop laughing and felt stuffed inside. As if something heavy is inside my heart that wanted to let go.
I took a deep breath and shout with all my heart until I get tired.
“F*ck you Bitch!” This is for Andrea.
“Be happy Aaron! Be happy without me!” This is what I wanted to tell him but it won’t let out.
“Don’t you dare miss me!”
“Don’t call me!”
“Live your life like the way it used to be!”
Now I finally shouted it.
“What a fuck up life!” My last shout echoes to the whole mountain. Birds are flying as if saying to me that I am disturbing their peace.
“I love you, Aaron…”I could not shout it out.
After shouting. I just let my eyes wonder and enjoy the peaceful scenery in front of me.
It’s dark but there is the round big moon with thousands of stars shining brightly. But sad to say that I could not appreciate the beauty in front of me. After shouting, the pain is still here!
But at least it makes me breathe.
“Are you okay now? I mean, Did it make you feel better?” Greg asked.
“Yes, thank you,” I answered smiling.
Then we leave the place but my heart remains.
Aaron is my home and will always be…
I will be like a ghost from now on. Wandering until I find my way back home…