Heart Of A Beast

*Rina*

“So why have you been quite?” Thelma asked as she watch me drink up the bowl of soup I told her to make me when I walked into the kitchen a few minutes ago.

The truth was that, I needed to get away from all the emotions getting to me, *it’s just sex Rina and I shouldn’t be worked up all because of that* I thought with a faint blush on my cheeks.

I tried to tell myself a dozen time, I don’t want to share Damien, I want him all to myself and it looks like I’m not going to have him in the most important part, the moon goddess must be playing a cruel joke on me. *And hey goddess it isn’t getting any funny so stop!* I yelled in my head.

“Poor you!, You are worriedbecause Fiona is around?” Deya whispered darting a look around the busy kitchen to make sure no one was listening to our conversation.

“Not really, I don’t care about Fiona. There’s just something bothering me. If the moon goddess knew that Damien and I couldn’t mate then why was I his mate?” I asked the burning question which has kept me awake all night.Property of Nô)(velDr(a)ma.Org.

“Really? You mean you and the Alpha haven’t….?” Thelma shuttered… blushing a little.

I also had the grace to blush at her question l, suddenly taking a deep fascination at the soup I was drinking, * How do I answer that?*

“Do I need to answer that” I blush a little harder.

“Gosh! You have that sexy package all to yourself and haven’t got a bit of him? Damn girl he’s your man, you own him, take him to bed, seduce him until he can’t say no then fuck him till his eyes roll back and he forget every single bitch he has ever been with” Deya told me.

I stare at her like she was crazy. “I thought you were a virgin” I teased blinking rapidly.

“You thought wrong” She admitted. “Liam and I are already mated”

Thelma groan as if wishing she could disappear, from the look on her face.

“Who’s Liam?” I asked since it the first time she’s mentioned it to me.

“My mate” She answered.

“Awwwn” I gushed which made her blush and Thelma rolling her eyes at us.

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“How far are you hanging on in there? I heard that you are completely useless in bed, a weak human who would probably die if her mate had mate with her. You are useless” Fiona tauted giving me a smug smile.

I wished I could just wrap my fingers tightly around her neck and squeeze hard until she turn pale, but I do not match her strength. And who the hell told her that? *Damien?* I thought with a sinking feeling.

“I don’t know what you’re talking about!” That came out weakly than I intended. *Gosh I can’t let her know how much are words affected me knowing she would deprived joy from that*

“Poor you, I kind of pity you cause you will never know what Damien’s touch feels like, intimately if you know what I mean, the feelings of his hands on your breasts? Of course you won’t and let talk about the feel of his fingers in your….. ” Then she laugh cruely.

I could only stare at her with a disgusting look on my face but inside, my heart of breaking but I refused to let her see it.

“Even his pets get a taste of him and you? You call yourself his mate yet you don’t know how it feels like to be touch by one’s mate, especially to be touch by a man like Damien. So don’t you think you’re worthy of being called his mate, Damien deserves a strong woman and not a girl who has no idea of her identity, or a girl who might passed out at the idea of being made love to” She tauted pausing and waiting for my reaction.

This time I couldn’t blink by the tears, there was was truth in her words no matter how much I tried to deny it. A Luna is meant to be strong…

“Is that all?” My voice cracked, the pain I felt at that moment was just too much that for a split second I thought I might pass out or something.

“What the hell is going on here?” Damien growled behind us.

I quickly hurried out of the room not bothering to give him an answer, Fiona could she’s strong enough I thought blinking back my tears. I could feel him coming after me but I didn’t turn around until I was in the safety of my room soon than expected. He walks in.

“Rina! You’re going to give me an answer! What the hell was going on back there? Did Fiona hurt you again?” His eyes took a dangerous light but that moment I didn’t care.

“My last demand? I want you to break all your promises and words to me, You’re free to do whatever you want with who so ever you wish” I said turning away from him.

“Fuck Rina! Why do you have tears in your eyes? You better start talking before I go in there and kill her” He threatened causing my eyes to grow wide on my face.

Actually I part of me wanted him to kill Fiona, I just wanted her gone which was something terrible. But I’m not heartless and no matter how much I try to blame her, she isn’t at fault here.

“No, Fiona was telling me stories about her pack so I just got emotional” I lied.

I could tell he doesn’t believe me but he didn’t push the matter any further, just curse under his breath and left the room, I thought he would come back that night but he didn’t so I was left to sleep alone which had me crying all over again.

Then a imagine of Fiona in Damien’s bedroom giving him the pleasure I couldn’t flash through my mind, giving him the pleasure I couldn’t give him as a mate.

That night I cried myself to sleep.

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I frowned slightly staring at the book I borrowed from the school library, a book which is supposed to be about the legendary of witches and stuff but I couldn’t find anything of sort in the book. Just some ridiculous story about witches which are obviously fake and rumors. I sighed in frustration, could this day get any worst?

I choose to go with another book about witches again, walking over to the couch I sat down, it was six thirty in the morning and I was supposed to be on my way to school. I don’t want anyone seeing me the way I look, red eyes, swallowen face and lips. I obviously look scary enough.

And I heard from the servants that left the house early in the morning. Not that I cared anyway knowing he obviously spend his night with Fiona not caring about how I felt. *You were mated to a beast so what were you thinking?*

I frowned yet again not paying much attention to what I was reading, seriously do I really have a future with Damien? I don’t even know what to make us being mate. This has no future. I thought with a shake of my head.

It’s time I do the right thing, even though Damien might kill me in anger. But I must! With my chin lifted up in determination I left the room to search for him.

I met Daniel at his usual spot so I approached him instead since he’s likely to know his whereabouts.

“Daniel can I talk to you?” I asked looking past the training worriors who looked so scary and intimidating.

“You’re not supposed to be here!” He scolded.

“Then I will be quick, Where’s your Alpha?” I spat the last part which made Daniel raised an eyebrow.

“He’s having an important meeting with Alpha Jared who happened to need our help, he offers to give Damien anything he wants from his land, don’t you think it good?” Daniel asked with a smile on his face.

Who in their right mind would want to strike a deal like that with Damien? And from the way Daniel is smiling I could tell something was up.

“Of course! Where’s the meeting taking place?”

He shook his head looking at me like I had gone bad. “You’ll have to wait here then” He finally said and I nodded in response.

Half an an hour later, I finally stopped worrying about seeing Damien and I left for school, yeah I was late fur my first class but no teacher dared even ask or stopped me. Advantage of being a future Luna, and I have begin to hate that title.

*Calm down Rina, don’t let them get to you* I thought with a puzzle look on my face as a familiar tall figure approached me. The same person Damien wanted to murder.

“Hey Rina!” He grinned. “Luckily I think your mate has stopped looking for me, thanks” then he turned to leave, I quickly stop him which caught him by surprise.

“You can do something for me in return won’t you?” I asked looking up at him.

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Tbc.