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the next day, I woke up with Lucifer no longer beside me. I just sighed and stared into space.
That’s it? After what happened to us last night, will he leave again?
I got up and got dressed, pretending he was just in the kitchen and cooking but I was wrong. there was no Lucifer in the kitchen. Even just one note for me he left nothing.
I leaned over and burst into tears. I can’t understand him. The whole I thought we had a serious conversation last night didn’t happen. I sent in body heat.
My idiot really! and I really still believed what he told me! My fragility!
But, it can’t be that way! He can’t just leave after he uses my body!
I cooked something to eat and went back to the room. I’m going to take him to his office. I will face him and talk. This time I will no longer send in my frailty.
I took a taxi to the company. When I arrived I went straight in. The guard called me but I didn’t look back and immediately took the elevator.
“Where’s Lucifer?” I asked Lucifer’s secretary.
“You again?” This will last.
I raised an eyebrow and stood up straight.
“Yes, why? You have a problem?”
It stared at me and went back to what he was doing.
“Sir is talking to someone inside who is a very important person to him so you can’t come in.” my fist clenched at what he said.
“I don’t fcking need your permission. I’ll come in if I want.” I nodded and walked quickly toward the door of Lucifer’s office.
“Just wait! It’s forbidden!” The secretary shouted but my attention was distracted by the voice I heard inside.
“Lucifer, I’m pregnant!” I was stunned to hear.
“Don’t come in–” I opened the door and Lucifer and Fiona were exposed to me. It was obvious on Fiona’s face that she was happy and seemed excited.
Did I hear right? Is Fiona pregnant?
they both turned to me and I could clearly see Lucifer’s eyes widen and the shock.
“L-Lara–”
“What are you doing here?!” Fiona shouted.
“Maam Fiona, I’m sorry. I stopped her but she’s really struggling.” Secretary’s complaint.
Fiona’s face lit up with anger as she looked at me.
“Get him out of here–”
“I’m not leaving.” My bold answer.
“What did you say?”
“I’m not leaving, Fiona. The three of us are here again, why don’t we talk?”even in my heart it hurts to see the two of them together, maybe this is the day we need to talk to end all this nonsense of mine.
“And what are we going to talk about? What do you want? Are you here again to beg Lucifer to come back ? lara, are you stupid? What do you not understand that he doesn’t want you anymore?! – ”
“If he doesn’t want me anymore, why did he have sex with me last night ?!” Fiona’s eyes widened at what I said and looked at Lucifer.
Lucifer also stared at him and turned to me dejectedly.
“Lara, I think you need to go home–”
“Is that so, Lucifer ?! After you expected me last night? After you claimed me over and over last night ?! Is that so? Will you leave me? Expect and make a fool of me again?” Tears welled up in my eyes.
“Lara, you should go home. You’re pregnant–”
“Oh, Lara! Do you know that I’m also pregnant?” Lucifer and I both looked at Fiona again.
“Fiona–”
“No, Lucifer! She needs to know! I’m pregnant and you’re the father.”
I wiped away my tears and laughed heartily.
“Are you really good Lucifer? Two women, you’re pregnant?” I asked him with a laugh.
Her lips parted as if she wanted to say something but she couldn’t.
“Sure, you’re right Fiona.” Fiona stared at me and fell silent.
“I’m stupid. Stupid and fragile. I became stupid in my love for Lucifer. I gave everything to him. My body, my personality and my heart. I bet he will come back to me. Because what he saw isn’t really true, is it? “Fiona’s eyes suddenly widened at me and I was about to approach when I gave her a fake smile.
“You’re all to blame for this Fiona. You sinet-up everything. Nothing really happened to Tristan and me. you ordered Tristan to cover my nose in the bathroom and put me to sleep. You sewed me up. You pretend something happened to us. You called Lucifer on my cell phone to get to where Tristan and I were– ”
“That’s not true! You’re lying! Lucifer, she’s lying ! he’s just insulting me– ”
“Stop Fiona!” Lucifer shouted. We were all stunned by the strength of its cry.
“L-Lucifer …” Fiona called to him in a low voice but Lucifer was already burning with anger.
Lucifer turned to me and walked quickly in my direction. I was suddenly confused and backed away but it caught my arm and pulled me out of the office.
“Lucifer! Lucifer, where are you going ?!” Fiona shouted but we were already inside the elevator.
“W-Where are you taking me–”
“We need to fcking talk now, Lara.” he said in a cold voice and when the elevator opened he quickly pulled me towards his car.
“On board.” I couldn’t struggle anymore when he forced me to get in the car.
“L-Lucifer, I don’t want to go with you!” I shouted when he suddenly pulled the car over.
“Where are you taking me ?!” I shouted again but he did not answer me.
“Get me down here right now Lucifer! Look if you plan to kill me with your speeding, remember I’m pregnant and you’re not the only one you can kill!” I shouted so loud that it stopped him.
It stopped the car and stared at me.
“You idiot! Don’t touch me if you want to die–”
“I’m sorry.” I was stunned by what it said.
He violently wiped his face and sighed.
“Fck !!” He cursed repeatedly and even punched the steering wheel.
“I’m coming down–”
“You won’t come down, Lara. You’re just here and we’ll talk.”
“What else are we going to talk about Lucifer? Aren’t the things I said before enough?” He shook his head.
“That’s not enough Lara–”
“P’wes for me that’s enough Lucifer!”
He fell silent and averted his gaze. suddenly his cellphone rang in his pocket so he took it but it was Fiona who was calling.
I smiled wryly and my eyes warmed.
“She’s pregnant …” I said in a low voice.
“And you’re the father.” I added and took a deep breath.
“We’re not sure if I’m really the father–”
“Do you think she’ll still lie to you Lucifer? She’s obsessed with you! Do you think she’ll let nothing happen to you especially now that you’re engaged?” He just shook his head.
“We’re not sure, LaraMaybe she’s not really pregnant and she just said that to make you angry– ”
“What kind of thinking is that Lucifer? Are you really like that? When I was, you said you weren’t the father! Now that Fiona is pregnant, you’re not sure if you’re the father ? what kind of brain do you have Lucifer ?! “‘I can’t believe what I said.
“I know that I’m stupid Lara! Yes! I’m the most stupid man in the world! But do you think, I’m not hurt either?” I stared at him after he said that.
“Lucifer, you’re a demonyou’re the heartless man I know. Do you think I’ll believe you’re hurting too? You’ve already made us both pregnant, are you still hurting in that situation? “I asked.
It smiled forcefully at me. “Being stupid, it doesn’t hurt anymore?” He said and looked to the front.
“I’m hurting too.” He said.
“Could you, Lucifer? Let’s stop the drama.” I’m serious.
“I don’t want Lucifer anymore. I’ve given up.”
“What do you mean?” He asked. I averted my eyes from him and turned my face to the front.
“I’ve realized my worth. I no longer want to be a poor woman who repeatedly forces herself on the man I no longer love. “Tears began to well up from my eyes.
“At first, I thought I could. I thought I could make you friends again. I thought I could get you again. I thought you would love me again. I thought we were going back to the past full of love. But I’m wrong. I endured for several years even though it hurt me. I asked myself. Why did I waste my time on you when in the end I still lost? “I looked at him with teary eyes.
“If I continue to love you, how many more years will I be able to suffer from the pain? I’m already in so much pain, Lucifer. I’m already in so much pain. I’ve endured for a few years because I love you. I’ve endured your coldness. I endured being your demon because I thought I would be an angel who could change you. But I’m wrong. I’ve realized … maybe I’ll put myself and my child first. I don’t want us to be an obstacle in your life. You’re engaged. You are getting married to Fiona. you still have responsibilities because your fiancé is pregnant. “I wiped the tears from my face and smiled hard at her.
“I’m h-happy for you, Lucifer. Even if you’re not my last, you’ll always remember that you were my first. You’re my greatest mistake and my greatest love. m-I love you Lucifer but if my love for you will harm me and our future child, maybe I should stop it. I don’t want to be the hindrance of your success. Almost everyone knows that you are already engaged. when they find out I’m around you, we’ll just ruin it. “I held out his hand.
“What are you saying Lara? No! You’re not leaving! You’re not leaving me–”
“I need to, Lucifer. I want you to fix yourself. Yes, I know you’re just a person who makes mistakes too. but I don’t want to add to your mistakes Lucifer. Do you know what is right to do? To be a responsible father to Fiona’s future child. “I tightened my grip on her hand.
“No, Lara! No, I won’t let you leave me!”
I cried again and burst into tears.
“Lucifer too ! I do not understand you! I thought you didn’t want me anymore ?! I thought you didn’t love me anymore? Why are you like this now? Is it because of what happened last night? I know you just don’t have that so please! let’s stop this– “I was not finished when it suddenly turned my neck and crushed my lips with a kiss.
I just closed my eyes and kept crying.
Why are you like this Lucifer? Why do I seem to want to retract what I said? I can no longer understand what is happening! I can’t understand you anymore Lucifer! How do you really feel about me?
Its lip parted slightly.
“L-Lucifer …”
“I’m sorry … I’m sorry. Please forgive me, my Velle.” it was as if suddenly a butterfly was flying inside my stomach when it mentioned the name he used to call me when we were together.
Am I hoping for Lucifer again?
“I-I don’t understand you-” I sniffed.
“You will understand me soon. For now, I want you to trust me.” I was shaken.
“And what? I’ll wait again? I’ll hope again?” I backed away from him.
“Lucifer, do you love me?” Suddenly I asked him.
He fell silent so I took a deep breath. What else can I expect? He does not love me. He doesn’t love me anymore …
“I’m coming down–”
“No, I’ll take you–”
“Say I’m coming down!” I shouted at him.
“I don’t want Lucifer anymore! I don’t want you anymore! I’ve given up! I don’t want to hope! You’re tired of being loved …” I whispered and got out of his car.Content (C) Nôv/elDra/ma.Org.
“Lara, please understand me …”
“Never, ever will I understand you Lucifer. I don’t know what you mean but I don’t want to. I’ve given up. “I slammed the car door shut and turned around.
I guess this is the end of us? Wait, do we have any?
The eyes blurred as I crossed the road. I thought I could get on well but there was a car speeding towards me.
“Lara !!!”
My eyes widened but it was too late for me to dodge. A car crashed into me causing me to fall.
It hurts. My body is numb. I can not move. I even saw the car not stop and just keep running.
“Lara !! Oh sht! Fck! Lara !!” Consecutive shouts of Lucifer’s voice but it was all too late as I slowly closed my eyes.
I woke up as if no one was feeling. all parts of my body seemed numb as I stared at the white ceiling. Where am I? I tried to move my hand.
“Lara? Lara, you’re awake!” Mylene cried and hugged me.
“N-Where am I?” I will ask.
She let go of the hug. “A-What do you want ? would you like to drink water? “But he asked.
“M-Mylene … w-where am I?” I asked again when he suddenly burst into tears.
“L-Lara, w-don’t you n-remember?” When he asked that question, suddenly some scenes entered my mind. In the car … Lucifer and I … collided …
“I-I’m in the hospital?” I asked so he nodded.
I immediately touched and felt my stomach.
“A-My b-baby?” I asked him again but he just averted his eyes.
“I-I’ll just call your doctor, Lara–”
“M-Mylene’s my b-baby ?!” I was trembling with fear.
the more he cried the more I felt in my chest.
“W-What n-happened to my baby?” I stared at him again.
“L-Lara, I-I’m sorry …” He approached me and held my hand.
“M-Mylene I can’t understand you! My baby ?!” I shouted at him.
he just shook his head and cried even harder. He held my hand tightly.
It was there that I realized that what I was thinking was true.
“W-Is my b-baby gone?” I asked in a low voice.
“I-I’m sorry Lara! I’m sorry!” He said so I kept crying.
“Y-Yong my son!” I shouted.
“Lara, calm down–”
“How can I calm down when my son is gone ?! How, huh ?!” I shouted loudly.
Suddenly a doctor in uniform entered.
“Miss Lara–”
“D-Doc? T-Is that true ?! Is it true that my son is gone ?!” the doctor averted his eyes and nodded weakly cause my world seemed to stop.
“N-No … no! No! My child is still alive! Give me my child! My b-baby …” I sobbed and hugged my friend tightly.
the door opened again and the two men entered. When I saw someone’s face I went crazy.
“You!” I point to Lucifer.
“It’s your fault! It’s your fault why I lost my son! You !!” I’m losing. Tristan ran towards me to stop me but I really wanted to approach Lucifer. I want to punch him! I want to scratch him! I want to beat him!
“K-it’s your fault!” I knelt on the floor and cried even more.
“My baby, w-it’s gone … w-my baby is dead …” I said weakly and closed my eyes.
“My son … my strength. The only thing I have is gone. He’s gone … he’s gone …”