ALWAYS AND FOREVER

Cross Pov

I froze, of all the things I had thought Ginna had talked to Kathy about it never crossed my mind that it will be about the kid that we almost had.

“What? Is that too hard to answer? That’s what I wanna know though, it’s okay if you don’t want to tell me,”

She said and stood up to walk away, I held her hand.

“Hey, don’t go, of course, I will tell you, I don’t want to keep anything from you anymore Kathy, if this is what you wanna know then I am going to tell you,”

I said and she sat back down looking at me expectantly, I didn’t even know where to start from so I decided to just go from the beginning.

“Ginna and I met when I was Eighteen and she was sixteen, she was working a part-time job at a tub my friends and I always visited, we didn’t hit off immediately though because when we met she had been dating one of the boys, but they broke up and we started dating three months later, that was about eight months after we met, but then mom and dad didn’t like her and didn’t want us to be together so we were forced to only meet in private, she was the one I went to the Bahamas with, but when we returned from that trip, she told me she was pregnant, I didn’t know what to do or how to react, back then I was almost rounding up college and my dad was already talking about me going to New York, so when she told me she was pregnant, my plans were simple, I will take care of her and the baby in private until I can move to New York where we will get married in secret and love as a family, then when the time was right I will finally tell my family that she was the I want to spend my life with,”

I paused looking at her but she didn’t show any kind of emotions and was just looking at me as if urging me to continue, I wanted to know how well she was taking what I was saying but I couldn’t tell by her expression so I just continued.

“But nothing went according to plans as she lost the baby, she hated me for it and we broke up about two weeks later just before my graduation and she and her mom left town and I never heard from her until we met at the hotel in New York this year,”

I finished looking at her.

“Okay, that was quick and pretty much not what I expected, but then my question is how do I come into all of this? I didn’t know her, so where do I come in?”

She asked, I didn’t know what she met, I knew she didn’t know Ginna, while Ginna had gone to the public school in her neighbor Kathy had gone to a private school and there was no way they would know each other.

“I don’t understand, you don’t come in except this year,”

“No, Ginna blames me for ruining her plans at a better life, although she didn’t get to finish what she had been saying because she got that call but she clearly was blaming me for the loss of the child and her chance at a good life,”Content held by NôvelDrama.Org.

She revealed and all I could do was think, I couldn’t remember where she came into all of that and why Ginna thinks she has a hand in the list of our child, I thought back to that night almost eleven years ago when it had happened.

“Oh, shit,”

I said out loud as it finally clicked.

“Why?”

“Remember that night when you came to the party?”

“What night?”

“Don’t you remember? You went to a grown-up party and you were only thirteen I think, The night I left you alone on that road, the reason you hated me so much?”

“Yes, I do, I remember, what about it?”

“Remember I got a call that night while we were arguing?”

“Yes, and you left after that, leaving me to my fate,”

She replied bitterly, I couldn’t blame her, I felt bad for leaving her on her own there but Ginna had needed me and Kathy had been acting like a spoilt little brat, I was tempted to roll my eyes at the memory but I remembered just how serious this conversation was.

“I am sorry Kathy, but that night was the night Ginna lost our kid, I don’t know how she knew I was with you that night because I never told her that, but that might be the reason she blames you,”

I revealed.

“Wow, as much as I feel bad for her for losing a child, it not totally true that you were with me the whole night though, remember you were at a party? So it’s not my fault, I wish I can meet her again and tell her that,”

She said with a pout, I didn’t want her meeting Ginna, but I wasn’t going to tell her that, I will let her decide.

“Any other thing you wanna know?”

I asked, my heart beating fast, I wanted to know where we stood so bad, she looked so relaxed that I didn’t know what it meant.

“Did you guys sleep together?”

She asked.

“No, it didn’t happen,”

I answered truthfully, I still felt ashamed of the fact that I had been so weak that it might have happened, of course I didn’t expect her to believe me because those damn photos says otherwise but I looked at her and waited for what she will say.

“Okay, that’s all, you are forgiven,”

She said and I couldn’t believe my ears, I must have heard her wrong.

“What?”

“I said, it’s fine, you didn’t sleep with her but you fell into her seduction and almost did but you didn’t, which is cool because if you had, I won’t have forgiven you because I hate sharing what’s mine,”

She replied and I could only stare with my mouth open, that was it? She wasn’t mad at me? She believed me?

“Why are you looking at me like that Cross? It scaring me,”

She let out.

“I am just confused, that’s it? Does this mean you are not gonna leave me? And you are not mad at me anymore? You believe that I said?”

I asked bewildered, I hadn’t expected her to believe what I said, I just let her know because she said she needed answers, I expected her to tell me that I was lying but she believed me.

“Yes, I am not mad at you and yes I am not going to leave you, you didn’t do anything wrong, well excluding the part where you made out with her, that shit hurt but I am fine now, besides you should know already, I let you sleep in the same room as me and we have been sharing a bed since we got here and I let you touch me.”

“I thought you were just going with the act,”

I said, I honestly thought she was doing those things because she didn’t want our parents finding out we have issues, I never thought it because she has already forgiven me.