ALWAYS AND FOREVER

*****

The next couple of days were quite busy in the house, everyone was so hyped for Anna giving birth, she was moved to the hospital today since her due date was Friday which was the day after tomorrow, I could finally visit my family after four days of being in Arizona, it’s not like I couldn’t go since but I didn’t want to go alone and Cross had been busy taking care of some work related stuff, compound with the fact that I was weak for the first two days, now sitting in our shared bedroom, I texted my older sister that we were ok our way, we were all gonna meet at my parent’s house and they were already there, Nathan included since he has been living with our parents since he returned, I didn’t know what to expect from our meeting, the last time we had all been in the same room was when Nathan had said he was leaving and since then the four of us have never been together at the same time, we use to be so close, and I wondered if we could go back to the way we were.

“What are you thinking about that you are frowning?”

Cross asked as he walked into the room, he looked better than he did when he was in New York even though his dad had given him work to do as soon as we arrived, he looked less stressed and smiled each time.

“About meeting my siblings,”

I replied.

“Why will that make you frown? Shouldn’t you be excited to see them again?”

“I should but, I don’t know,”

“Why?”

“We weren’t on good terms the last time we met, remember? Before our wedding?”

“Oh, that? I thought you guys talked it out,”

“Yes we did, but it was over the phone,”

“What difference does that make? I don’t get you?”

“The thing is we were really close before, what if we are now awkward? I don’t think I will like it,”

I replied truthfully, since the day we talked about meeting up that has been my fear, what if we are now more like strangers to one another?.

“You guys are siblings, no distance can change that, take me and Max, for instance, we are so different and we don’t see each other all the time but when we do meet, it will be like we were never apart, that’s how sibling are, nothing can change that,”

He answered.

“I hope so, honestly I am scared.”

“It’s gonna be just fine, that aside though, how are you feeling? I am sorry I have not been paying much attention to you since we got here,”

He said and I wondered if I have been living wrong for the last four days because he has been attentive in every way, making sure I eat, making sure I take a rest, making sure I didn’t need anything, calling me every hour when he isn’t here, if that’s not attentive then I don’t know what is.

“Why are you looking at me like that? Like I said something wrong,”

“Well, I am trying to remember if I got the meaning of attention wrong because you have been giving me a lot of attention,”

“Aha, not as much as I want though,”

“Crazy, how much more?”

“More than this at least, I have a lot to make up for, I know you might still not want to talk about it right now but Kathy, I wish we don’t go apart,”

He said, I have been having thoughts, thinking about what questions to ask him but so far, aside from the unanswered question that Ginna had left in me and those photos I had nothing else come up, and I know I have forgiven him, it was hard not to see the way he had been treating Anna and everyone around since we came back, especially Anna, his mom has confirmed it that Anna glowed better when Cross was around and it was true, the girl only had good things to say about Cross too, she calls him savior sometimes, and the way he had helped her in setting up the nursery for the twin, I had no doubt that he would be a good father to our child, my only fear was what if I give him the chance and he does something again, will I be able to handle it? Or should I just give up now?

“Kathy?”

“We will talk about this when we get back Cross,”

I replied getting up from the bed and grabbing my bag.

“Okay, I love you,”

He said and I choose to ignore him, he has been saying it a lot since we got here, even in the presence of his parents, the first time he had said it in his mom’s presence she had screamed and had been so happy and had requested for payment from her husband, apparently, they had a bet onto how long it will take for Cross and me to fall in love, and he had lost since he said a year or two, she had said within three months and the moron had agreed that he fell in love with me within that period, of course, I didn’t believe him but I didn’t bother correcting him, there was no need.

“Will I ever hear it back from you?”Copyright Nôv/el/Dra/ma.Org.

He asked in a low voice when I was about to leave the room.

“Cross, not now,”

“Sorry, let’s go,”

He said and went ahead of me, making me feel bad, I wanted to tell him but I was scared of making another mistake, so I couldn’t be blamed totally for not wanting to give in.

“Well, I guess it’s time to makeup, I can’t keep this up,”

I said to myself, deciding to have that talk with him later tonight, I was tired of acting like I was mad at him when I wasn’t, Ginna never replied to my text so I am just going to talk to Cross and whatever he says I will decide then whether to believe him or not, I already know the answer to that though…