ALWAYS AND FOREVER

Cross Pov

“Aha, finally,”

I said pulling her close, I didn’t know just how much I missed her until I held her in my arms, I couldn’t sleep last night with her in this room, I thought about it and decided I didn’t like fighting with her, I didn’t have to love her to care for her, and I did, I cared for her, so I decided not to go to work today, and spend the day with her, I went out to get her something as a form of a bribe but she hadn’t even looked at it, she had looked at me with so much hate and sadness that it made me feel bad for everything that I had put her through these past few days.

“I still don’t like you Cross,”

“I don’t like myself either, I am sorry for what I said okay, it won’t happen again,”

“You promise?”

“Yes,”

“And there is really nothing going on with your ex? I know I shouldn’t bring her up again but I can’t help it, she is the woman you love and I feel helpless,”

She said, I pulled her back into my hug.

“Ginna is not a threat Kathy, don’t worry, I promise I am only helping her as a friend, and whatever I feel for her, I am sure it in the past, she doesn’t even see me that way again, I owe her a lot Kathy, and I can’t neglect her now,”

“And nothing happened that night?”

“Nothing,”

“What about the photos? And why didn’t you come home that night?”

I explained everything that happened that night to her, how it happened, without leaving out a single detail, she was more understanding than I thought she would be and I felt stupid for acting out and not just talking it over with her in the first place.

“So, you will get her a house of her own and help her through and that’s all?”

“Yes Kathy, I owe Ginna,”

“You said it before, can I ask what it is about?”

“I can’t share the details right now Kathy, but I promise it’s all in the past.

I said, Ginna went through hell when she was with me, my parents never liked her and didn’t approve of our relationship, which is why we dated mostly in secret, I hated it but back then I had been powerless, she went through so much then, and I felt like this was the perfect time to make up for everything, for not being there with her when she needed me the most, when she had lost our child, she had called but by the time I got there it was too late, she already lost our kid and she had looked at me with so much hate, that has been the beginning of the end for us, we broke up two weeks later and never got to makeup, I never got to ask her to forgive me because she left before I got the chance to, I wasn’t ready to tell Kathy all these so I just hugged her closer.

“Alright, you can tell me when you are ready to,”All text © NôvelD(r)a'ma.Org.

“We are good now?”

“Yes, but,”

“But?”

“Nevermind,”

She replied.

“Tell me please?”

I persuaded.

“You won’t choose her over our marriage? I know I shouldn’t ask but I just want to know, I don’t wanna go through that again, it wasn’t nice at àll,”

“I won’t,”

I replied. I am just going to help Ginna get her life back in order and I am going to work on making my marriage with Kathy work, Ginna would be mad if I did something stupid because of her, even though I still had feelings for her we can never go back to what we used to be, might as well live with what I have.

“Okay, that’s enough hugs, get off me dude,”

She said pushing me off.

“I will just check those out,”

She added pointing at the stuff I got for her, they were things I knew she enjoyed and mostly filled with chocolates.

“Chocolates,”

She let out when she opened the bag, I smiled and went to seat with her, it felt so good to be with her like this, she eat in silence and I watched her with satisfaction, it would be so easy to love her if only I could let myself do, but sadly I can’t control my feelings, I didn’t even know them, I thought I did but I don’t, I don’t have control over them either.

“I met Louis,”

She said, I tried to remember who it was she was talking about but I couldn’t. She said, I tried to remember who it was she was talking about but I couldn’t.

“Who is Louis?”

“My ex,”

She responded and it finally clicked.

“The one who you almost ran away with, that stole from you?”

“Yup, him,”

“For real? Where? When? Why are you just telling me this?”

I asked.

“Really? You weren’t around remember? I waited to tell you that night bug you didn’t come back home and since then we have not been on talking terms which is why you are just hearing it,”

“I am sorry,”

“Stop saying sorry, it’s okay,”

She said with a smile, it felt cool seeing her smile at me like that again after not having her smile for days

“So what happened?”

I asked. I should have been there for her when she needed me not here now asking her what happened a couple of days later, I felt guilty even though she told me not to be.

“I beat him up,”

She said proudly, I resisted the urge to laugh, I didn’t want to piss her off but she looked so small that there was no way she would have beaten a grown-ass man up.

“You look like you don’t believe me?”

She said eyeing me.

“No, I do, where did you meet him?”

“At school, it was a coincidence I think, and I gave him a few punches and kneeled him twice in his areas,”

She revealed in a super proud voice.