Alpha Alec's Redemption

Chapter 0023

Piper.

I wandered around the pack aimlessly. I feel lost. So lost. It feels like a part of me is missing. I’ve known Sadie since we were little girls. She’s been my best friend, my confidant, and my sister.

I never expected her to betray me by going after Alec. I was hurt and angry at her, but I never wished her any harm. I never wanted her dead. I know you’re probably scoffing at me right now because you think I’m a hypocrite, and maybe I am..

After all, when she was locked in the dungeon, I used to hear her screams. I heard her begging for mercy. Begging them to stop. At that time, I was so mad at her and felt so betrayed that I fooled myself into believing that she deserved it. That she needed to be punished before she could be redeemed.

Now she’s dead, and I feel like I’ve lost a part of my soul.Nôvel(D)rama.Org's content.

When I was informed that she’d escaped, I felt pissed off at her audacity and her cowardly move, but at bigger part of me was glad. That part was happy that she was able to free herself, something I didn’t have the guts to do for her.

My mind is consumed with bitterness towards myself. I can’t stop the tears from falling down my face or the gasps of sorrow that leave my mouth.

I fall down on the grass, not caring about the stabbing pain I feel in my knees. This is less than i deserve for abandoning her. Yes, she made a mistake, but I should have been there for her. Everyone turned their backs on her, and I can only imagine how broken she was.

We were supposed to stick together. To have one another’s back despite the foolish thing the other did. That is a promise we made to each other, yet I broke mine. The worst thing. The thing that guts me to the core is knowing that if the situations were switched, Sadie would have stuck by me o despite being guilty.

I can’t control the gut–wrenching sobs that are coming from deep inside. I feel like I’m being ripped. I feel like I’m being torn from the inside out. I grasp my chest in a failed attempt to stop the painful aching that is destroying me.

Arms wrap around me, but they do nothing to comfort me. Alec’s familiar scent envelops me, but it does nothing to erase my tears or calm down the violent waves that are crashing against me.

I should have been there for her. Despite being guilty, I should have stayed by her side. Now she was dead, and it was too late.

“Let it out, Buttercup,” he whispered, and I can’t hold it back anymore.

I scream, and seconds later, my screams turn into a howl of pain and loss. Another reminder of all that I’ve lost.

I was one year older than Sadie. She was there on the day that I shifted. Both she and Alec were. My wolf was scared, but they were able to calm her down. Ash immediately took a liking to Sadie, and she was counting the days till she met her wolf. I screwed that up. She’s been pissed at me for refusing to believe that Sadie planned everything, despite every piece of evidence saying she did.

Soon, my tears run out, and I’m left hiccupping Alec helps me up and leads me towards a nearby bench.

“Feeling better?” he asked, his eyes searching mine. I probably looked hideous right now, but I didn’t care.

Alec was the best big brother anyone could ask for. Despite this, I also know that he is feared. That there are others who call him a beast or a monster. No one except for me, my late parents, and Lola knows that he actually has a soft side.

I know my brother well, so I know he has a vengeful side. No one crosses him and remains breathing. I should have known that he wouldn’t have left Sadie alone. Hindsight is a bitch like that.

“I don’t think I’ll ever feel better,” I murmured, leaning my head against his shoulder.

“I’m sorry,” he finally says, but I don’t reply.

He’s not sorry that Sadie is dead or that he’s the reason she is; he’s just sorry that her death affected me emotionally.