Chapter 287
Christof sat and watched us a moment before he spoke. “It isn’t normal for a human to have this attachment to us,” he said simply. “That’s probably why it doesn’t work right for her.”
Nobody else could have done what I just did, the internal dialogue told me. They couldn’t disappear into the bond and forget their own feelings. It just didn’t work that way.
They agreed with Christof. My family would have to be careful with me. I was having trouble with the bond.
“You’ll have to be more aware, Ciara,” Christof warned. “I don’t think you are supposed to be able to do this. You aren’t doing it correctly. You will get injured this way.”
I couldn’t disagree. They had a great deal more experience with this than I had. Grateful for their warmth, I just snuggled with them.
As I got warmer, I started to enjoy the press of warm flesh on either side of me. Since I was facing Damien I started to place kisses across his neck and chest.
“Hmm, and what are you doing?” he asked, raising an eyebrow.
“Thanking you for noticing my distress,” I said continuing to kiss in between the words.
It was novel being outside and pressed between their warm, masculine bodies.
“You’re getting excited,” Evan commented from beside us. “You want us to have sex with you.”
I rubbed Bane’s hip and pressed my ass against him. Yes, I wanted them, but I wasn’t getting the same feelings from them. They didn’t like to have sex outside.
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In their memories, I saw the sanctioned matings. The women pressed them into the rocky soil and mounted them. The sun got in their eyes, their backs got sore from being pummeled to the ground, and other groups of women stood around watching. My men hated it.
My men liked my soft, smaller body. Being inside, on their comfortable bed, and in whatever position they choose made them happy. It was private and quiet. Using me in the bedroom was a rare delicacy, all pleasure and no pain. That was an uncommon experience on this world.
“It’s not like that on my home world,” I said feeling my arousal fade away. Contentt bel0ngs to N0ve/lDrâ/ma.O(r)g!
“People have sex just about everywhere and anywhere.”
“This is your world now,” Damien reminded me, “and sex in your current state brings you pain. What you want would not be good for you.”
The rebuff didn’t sting as bad as it could have. I looked into Damien’s eyes and felt only his concern for me course through our bond. It wasn’t that he didn’t want me. He just didn’t want to cause me pain. Sex outside, in his experience, was always uncomfortable. He and his Brothers would never do that to me.
We flew back to the mountain after we ate the morning meal outside. I was left in their rooms and they went to the sorting room.
The tutors came as usual and taught me more about Language and numbers I enjoyed the Lessons, but disliked the tutors. They were rude. I had no problem seeing why Damien didn’t like them. Despite how knowledgeable they were, they were very impolite.
Nu-reeh came for me in the afternoon and we flew in the mountains. She took me so far, I wasn’t back before nightfall. The entire time she had me, she told me stories about the rest of the planet.
From what she said it was a fascinating and beautiful place. There were drier areas, like we were in now, she preferred those. There were wetter areas, too, all rain and rivers. She wasn’t as fond of those places. I just Listened to her with rapt attention.
Days passed and I had a certain familiarity with the procedure now. I was taught and trained, but no one bothered me. The frequent taunts of my tutors didn’t even bother me anymore. My uncles had said far worse to me.
Damien and his Brothers were a different story. When my tutors came and treated me badly, they more and more took the insults personally. If Damien was just angry before he stayed almost permanently furious now.
He fumed one afternoon after the tutors had left. Damien wanted to tell them what kind of punishment their commentary was earning them. They had no right to speak to me that way, I was as worthy as any of his Brothers.