A Girl in My Life

– Why was I brought back, Suriel? – I ask as soon as I see him in front of the portal.

He sighs, and after a few seconds of suspense answers me:

– The lord had you removed from the post of Elisa’s protector, Anael – I hold my breath.

What have I done wrong… Wait… Could it be because of what happened on the beach… Elisa’s statement, the strange feelings that invaded me and took me out of my senses? Am I going to get black wings? I feel my body freeze and my eyes flutter at this possibility.

– Unfortunately an emergency happened in the council of the gods and he had to leave, then he will talk to you.

That’s all he says before turning and flying away from me. I look at the angels guarding the portal and see a look of pity coming from them.

É… Sure enough…

I’ll turn into a falling angel! What the hell!

I feel my eyes burning, I don’t want to be that angel, I didn’t want to go against the Lord’s orders, but, besides… I don’t want to stay without seeing Elisa, I have already lost so many years of her life and now knowing that I will never see her again saddens my heart. The tears come out without my permission, if I become an angel with fallen wings I will be able to return to earth, but I will only be able to see her from afar, the protective angels would kill me if I approached being the holder of those wings.

I feel such a strong tiredness in my mind, never felt before, physically I’m fine, but mentally, I’m in pieces. With my vision blurred by the tears, I fly towards the dormitory, it’s been so many days that I haven’t been here that it is strange. Today I don’t stay in the newborn’s room anymore (in this case, the angels aspirants), now I share the room only with Zaniel, but as he is there on earth the room at this moment is only mine.

I lay face down on my cot and let the tears come freely from my eyes, although I don’t want to see a black winged angel, knowing that I’ll never see the only human I don’t feel contempt for again makes my heart cry, I feel as if I needed her to live, all these days I stayed here, what I really wanted is that she was with me, I wanted to see her smiling and telling me that everything was going to be alright. Just as I also wanted to have been there on earth and told her how beautiful and perfect she is and that everything in the future would be fine, I wanted to hug her and protect her, especially from the HUMANS! Still crying I fall asleep.

[ Mr. Jairfin’s vision]

Unfortunately now I have to assume, I really did wrong, Anael should not be one of my angels. He almost falls to ruin and would still take Elisa, neither of them should feel this feeling, well, not couple love, especially him. But who knew, the one angel who always despised my creation, almost falls into shame for having forbidden feelings for a mere human.

Before he consummates the kiss I pull him back to the paradise, I don’t want him to carry black wings, I won’t give him this cruel destiny for a mistake that I will assume as mine only.

– Suriel – I call him in my spirit form.

– No sir.

– Come here, we need to talk! – I speak at last and in less than a minute he knocks at my door.

– Do you need something?

– Please sit down – I say pointing to the chair in front of me.

– A few seconds ago, Anael almost falls in shame.

– How? – he asks looking at me not wanting to believe.

– He is in love with Elisa, he feels in his heart the feeling that I reserved only for humans.

I see Suriel getting sad, he really likes Anael.

– He at this moment is frozen in time inside the portal, go there to receive him, and bring him here, I need to have a serious talk with him.

– What are you going to do…

“Tuntuntuntuntun” my dimensional window starts to ring, I look at it and see that it is a message from the council of gods, it seems that the god in universe five committed a crime against universe six and is alone fighting against three other universes. Since he is at a disadvantage he has turned to the council, I don’t know what he has done, but if he is alone against so many others I am going there just to be against him.

– Tell Anael that he will no longer be the angel protector of Elisa, tell him to rest that when I return I will talk properly with him.

I say at last and Suriel nods, I snap my fingers and head for the council of the gods.

[ Anael’s Vision]Contentt bel0ngs to N0ve/lDrâ/ma.O(r)g!

I wake up only the next day, I don’t cry anymore, I know that there for Elisa it’s been a year. But I hope she’s ok, I really wish I could see her, but I can’t. I’m feeling these strange things, and this may end up making me come an angel with black wings. I’d better wait for the lord to come back and confess to him, and hope he gives me his forgiveness.

I take a deep breath and leave the dormitory, this time I am simply walking through paradise, memories of when I was still just an aspirant come to mind, in a way I miss it, in those days I didn’t feel any of those things I feel now.

I walk until I reach the waterfall of the seraphim, I take some apples and fly to a rock that is in its centre, I sit there. I start to eat the apples and admire the beautiful landscape, here I feel calmer, for a moment I forget why I came back here. I continue admiring the calming beauty here until:

-Anael…- I hear the powerful voice of the commander and trainer Suriel.

I stop admiring the beauty of the paradise where I live, and get up from the rock in the middle of the waterfall where I am sitting. I give a brief greeting to Suriel and he says:

– Sir to you Anael – he says with his usual serious countenance.

– Do you know why, coach? – I try to get some information from him even knowing that it is impossible.

-The lord will tell you – he says and turns his back getting impulse for the flight.

I give a little smile and shake my head in denial, this coach of mine always so direct and enigmatic. I prepare myself to pick up momentum as well.

After bending my knees, stretching my wings, I grab the momentum and together, Suriel and I fly to the palace where the Lord lives; our creator.

It is very good to be in your presence, you are amazing, I never want to leave your side!

As we leave the region where Serafim’s waterfall is located, the memories come with everything in my mind, I remember why I came back, I remember Elisa and again my heart saddens and the fear is part of me again, I will keep the black wings and I will only be able to see her from far away. Here it is already half day, and for her there has been a year and a half.

“Has she forgotten me?” – I ask myself, already looking at the great palace.

We pause in front of the gate, but this time no one opens it, I only hear the voice of the gentleman in my consciousness and out of nowhere I appear in his office.

– Sit down please – he speaks calmly while drinking his grape juice – We need to talk seriously about your future Anael.

– I beg your pardon sir, I do not know how to explain, but in my heart I began to feel strange things, something strong that took my reason… I know that the things I was feeling are wrong but…

– It’s alright, I know exactly what you’re feeling, I won’t make your wings turn black, don’t worry, you won’t be the bearer of any shame. What I want to hear from you is that you explain me how you feel about Elisa, because until a few days ago you suggested me to eliminate all humans.

I take a deep breath, he just said he knows exactly how I am feeling and yet he wants me to say it with my words. I take a few seconds trying to find the best way to express myself.

– I assume that I did not feel anything but contempt and disgust for humans, I will not say that I like them, I still think it is a horrible place and that it should be reformed – I give a pause in my speech and I see the man looking at me attentively – My opinion about humans has not changed, they are despicable, cruel and even though they can do good they choose to do evil and even more if this evil serves to favor them then they do not even consider the possibility to help a brother.

I stop talking and remember Elisa’s smile, the smile that leaves the beauty of this paradise in a state of confusion:

– When that girl came into my life, I realized that at least she was worth it, I feel that for her I could kill or even die, all I want is for her to be very happy… E.. I wanted to be the cause of her happiness.

I say finally and start looking at the ground waiting for the scolding that doesn’t come.

– I have two options for you!