Yesterday, Today, and Tomorrow

**Lisa’s POV**

I started crying because I don’t know what he will do to me and at the same time the shame I have when he was dragging me outside the campus to his car. I see the anger and desperation of not believing what he said. I just can’t listen to another lie that could hurt me. I am afraid to get hurt. I am not ready for that.

“Why can’t you listen to me? Don’t you trust me?” He questioned me.

“My trust is not that easy to get. It has to be earned.” I told him while crying.

He looked at me as if he already lost the patient hearing me out. He grabbed my waist and the back of my head and drew me near him and he kissed me hungrily. I am totally shocked and I cannot move to his grip. I was crying and I felt that he was also crying. I can feel his tears on my cheek. That was my first kiss and why it has to be in this situation.

I tried all my strength and pushed him to release me, but he was too strong for my match. So, I let him kiss me until he was satisfied with what he was doing. After a while, he stopped kissing me but he still held me to his embrace. I was crying, he too was crying.

“I’m so sorry. I didn’t mean to be rude and disrespectful of you. I just don’t know how to explain things so that you would listen and understand what I have to say.” He confessed.

I just listened to whatever he said. I am sobbing. He just caressed my hair while he embraced me.

“Did you see us or did somebody tell you the incident while we were alighting from the bus after the practice?” He asked me while he was still holding me.

“I saw you.” I answered him.

“Why don’t you come forward, so that I can explain to you what you think that day?” He questioned me.

“There was no need to clarify things between you and me or between you and your girlfriend. It is very clear what your relationship is to that girl. Isn’t that obvious?” I answered back.

He released me from his embrace but he was still holding my arms and he looked at me as if pleading for a little understanding. I really want to know who that girl was.

“Who was that girl then?” I asked him with anger.

“She is nothing to me, no matter what she does or how she did it, still there is only one girl I want to be with for the rest of my life and that is you.”

I was totally shocked and I could not speak but just staring at him with his eyes also staring at me intently.

“What do you mean by that?” I asked him

“It means I love you. And you are the only girl for me no matter how much they throw themselves at me, it is still you that I want nobody else. Do you understand me now?” He explained.

“You never asked me if I feel the same way with you. What if I don’t love you?” He stared at me shocked and confused.

“I can’t force you to like me, much more love me. Just let me love you instead and don’t question how I would feel. Is that ok with you? I can accept anything you would say as long as you won’t stay away from me. That could be death for me.” He answered.Published by Nôv'elD/rama.Org.

I felt so ashamed that this man in front of me would be willing to accept his fate on me even though I don’t love him. Just my closeness and companionship would be enough for him to live. It was a heartwarming feeling. I know I have my priorities and love was not one of them. Am I ready to open my heart to love? I want to feel loved and I feel something for him anyway. I can’t say a word that I feel the same for him. So, I just kiss him on his lips, just a peck.

His eyes were wide in shock and he tightly embraced me again and he was crying and laughing at the same time.

“That does mean that you feel the same way as I do? Are you my girlfriend now?” He asked me, smiling brightly.

“Yes, I love you too. Is there any answer you wanted to hear from me?” I asked him mischievously.

“No, No, No. Your yes is more than enough for me as your answer! Though what you said that you love me too feels like heaven!” He was embracing me tightly while laughing with joy.

“I just have some conditions.” I told him.

“Go ahead, I’m listening.” He said smiling.

“No lying. No dates during classes. And most of all I just don’t want my father to know our relationship until I am ready to tell him so. Is that clear?”

“Yes ma’am.” And he saluted me as a sign of understanding what I wanted to imply to him.

He kissed me again on my lips and it felt good. The feeling you were loved and he’s willing to do everything for you. I wanted this relationship to work until we graduated and had our own career. I just wanted this relationship to last forever. I just hope so. I just wanted my first to be my forever, but would that be possible?

We were cuddling for a little longer. And before we got out of his car, he kissed me again.

“You would get tired of kissing me if you did that often.” I told him

“I would never get tired of kissing you, even if we grow old.” I just laughed at his comment.

We went straight to the cafeteria where his team mates were staying. We joined them for lunch and it was a memorable day for both of us. He proudly told them the news that I am already his girl. They were happy and he was congratulated by the team. We were now in a relationship and hoping we could overcome everything that will go against our way in the future.