CHAPTER 20: THUG OF FEELINGS
ALEXA’S POV
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I woke up because of the sound from my phone. I slept because I cried too hard here in my mini office. I checked my phone to see who was calling me, and then my eyes started to widen when I saw that I had more than thirty missed calls from Ken. Maybe, I slept for too long. I went straight to the bathroom to fix myself. My eyes are so red, hays. I really cried again because of him. After I fixed myself, I went back to the classroom. Our morning class had just ended, so it was already our lunch break which answered why many students were in the hallway. I entered the classroom to get my bag because when I asked our teacher if I could be excused, I did not grab my bag with me. I saw Caleb and Rhea with their concerned eyes.
” I am okay. ” I told them while trying to fake a smile.
” Are you sure? How about you go home already? ” Rhea asked me.
” I cannot, Beshy. We are having rehearsal for the pageant. ” I answered.
I looked around, but I failed to see who I was finding. Where is he?
” Ken is not here. He is still looking for you for a while now. ” Caleb said.
” I see, my phone is already in low battery, so I cannot contact him. ” I told Caleb while sighing.
” I will be the one to call him. Stay here for a while, so we will eat our lunch together. ” Caleb said and then excused himself.
I sat down in my chair. Rhea sat next to me, and then she hugged me. I tried to contain my tears, so they would not fall.
” He is not worth it, Alexa. Your tears are so precious to be wasted for him. Be brave. ” Rhea said while trying to comfort me.
Since Ken and Caleb are not yet here, Rhea and I just talked about random things to entertain me and prevent me from overthinking. After a while, Rhea became quiet. I followed where she was looking and was not shocked to see him. Rhea holds my hand tightly. She knew everything about what happened in the past regarding the decision I made. She also knew the pain I experienced because of the first, and I thought the last man I would love.
” Can we talk? ” James asked me directly.
I stood up, grabbed my bag, and motioned Rhea to go outside. I passed through James, but I stopped when he held my hands. I looked at him, irritated.ConTEent bel0ngs to Nôv(e)lD/rama(.)Org .
” We have nothing to talked about. ” I told him coldly.
” You know that we have lots of things to talk especially us. ” James told me in seriousness.
I smirked because of what he said. He really has the nerve to tell that.
” Well, I do not have time for you. And about us, it is already added a long time ago. ” I told him courageously.
” No, I knew you still love me. ” James commented proudly.
” You are crazy if you think that way. You should move on already, James. And I think my boyfriend will not appreciate you holding me, so let go. ” I told him. Well, it may be a half lie, but who cares.
” Really? What is the name of your imaginary boyfriend? Did you really think that I would not now that you never entered in a relationship after us. ” James said while grinning.
” You are already outdated. Now, let go of me. ” I instructed him coldly while I looked at him sharply.
” Now that I am able to hold you once again, I would never let go of you. ” James said that made me irritated.
I know that what he said has a double meaning. I turned my gaze to whoever was holding my other hand.
” Love, ” I called him loud enough to make James hear it.
The expression of Ken is so blank, and he looks at James sharply.
” If I were you, you would let go of Alexa’s hand. ” Ken told James coldly.
” What if I do not want to? ” James said while grinning.
” I will not tell you this again, so you better let go of my girlfriend’s hand. ” Ken told James once again with an emphasis on each word.
James’ hold on my hand was loosened, and I could see in his eyes the pain because of what Ken said.
‘ Why, James? Why are you making things difficult for the two of us ‘ I asked but only through my mind.
Ken took the chance to grab me when he noticed that James had already loosened his hold on my hand; that is why he totally let go of me. I just allow Ken to grab me for wherever we are going because of the confusion on my mind. After a while, we stopped. I looked around the place and realized that we were in the back of the school’s building. Ken gave me his handkerchief, which made me realize I was already crying.
” Do you still love him? ” Ken asked, but it looked like he was having difficulty questioning it.
I got shocked by both his question and his reaction. Where did his question come from?
” Well, I guess, silence means yes. ” Ken said bitterly after he failed to hear a word from me.
I wanted to tell him something, but he said once again, which shocked me.
” I want us to be real. ” He said once again while looking at my eyes directly, and his voice sounded like a plead.
Wait? What? Does it mean he likes me too? Wait, what do you mean by too, self? No, Alexa, it cannot be that I am in love with him. You just what. I sighed; I gave up on you, self. Silence surrounds the two of us. I did not know how to react to what he said. I admit that Ken makes me happy, but I am still too scared. My heart wants it, but my mind does not like it.
” Ahm, I ” I said stammering.
” Do not worry about it. You did not need to answer me now. ” Ken said, smiling even though sadness was visible in his eyes.
” Ehem! ”
Ken and I looked around to see who did that. We saw Caleb, who is currently grinning, and Rhea giggling. Seriously? Did they hear everything Ken said?
” Well, sorry lovebirds or whatever label you two have right now but we are hungry already. So if you do not mind, let us go to the cafeteria to have lunch. ” Caleb said while chuckling, so Ken glared at him.
” Yeah, right. Let’s go already. ” Rhea seconded while grinning.
Rhea and Caleb turned around and started walking. Ken was also walking, so I grabbed his hands, which made him turn his gaze on me. He is confused based on what is all over his face.
” Give me some time. ” I told him and then started running towards Caleb and Rhea.
I did not bother to look behind because I did not know how he would react, but I was smiling here. Well, I guess I also like my fake boyfriend.
KEN’S POV
” Give me some time. ” Alexa said, and then she ran towards Caleb and Rhea.
I smiled because of what Alexa said. Does it mean I have a chance with her? I ran in their direction, and we went together to the cafeteria to have our lunch.
TO BE CONTINUED!